When I saw this prompt here, @minimalistliving/kiss-blog-ideas-week-186-nov-15-21
I thought so deeply. I asked myself repeatedly what it could mean.
When I finally understood what the topic was requesting, another problem arose. I pinpoint a particular sensation I was feeling. The days went by and I decided that I would simply write about a sensation that I was familiar with, one that I feel a lot. I planned to write about the stiffness in my neck and pain in my back. But as I set out to start typing, a thought flashed
through my mind. It felt dishonest for me to write about something that I haven’t experienced in a while. I believe some topics require sincerity and this felt like one of those things. So I closed my laptop and went to bed, hoping to wake up with a clearer head and a sensation I could genuinely feel and write about.
I woke up today with so much warmth in my chest and stomach. That was when it dawned on me. I didn’t just wake up like this today. The sensation has been in my body for quite a while now but I was too focused on other things not to notice it. This morning, it was the first thing I caught so I decided to listen to my body, paying more attention.
The feeling is not intense. I guess that is why it’s easy to miss. It’s soothing, quiet, soft and consistent, never really leaving me. It’s not loud in a way that begs for attention. As I think deeper, I realize that this sensation reflects how I’ve been feeling lately, the woman I’m
becoming and my current state of mind. I’m in a season of rest, love and peace.
One of the reasons I can point out is my decision to slow down and take each day as it comes. I used to be such an anxious person. I would spend hours overthinking, worrying about what
comes next and stressing over things I have no control over. I gave myself sleepless nights
whenever things were not working the way I wanted or going as planned.
Recently, I’ve found comfort in the Bible. Jesus teaches constantly that we shouldn’t worry about tomorrow, but
focus on the present day as it already has enough worries of its own. (Matt. 6:34). He also admonishes us to avoid thinking too much because all of that cannot even make a strand of our
hair grey. The Bible is filled with God’s love and His promises to take care of us, never leave nor forsake us. This has ignited a lot of hope in me, knowing that my father in heaven who owns the entire earth has promised to take care of me. The more I dwell in that truth, the more anxiety fades away. It’s comforting to know that someone bigger, greater and more powerful is in charge
of my life. I’m also very thankful for His unfailing love. The knowledge of Christ brings
unexplainable peace and joy.
Another thing that has been making me feel warmth these days is recognizing the love around me. I say it casually that I’m so loved. My parents love me, my siblings adore me, my partner is
absolutely smitten by me, my friends cherish me and even people I’m not close to seem to like me very much. A lot of times when I think about the way these people go out of their way to care
for me, my heart almost bursts. The intentionality and consideration is unimaginable. It makes
me wonder if I was a powerful knight in my past life who saved many remote villages and towns
from destruction. Surely, I must have done something remarkable. I never feel alone in life
because of my people. They might not be many but they are worth the world.
Also, I’m in a place of growth, forgiveness and gratitude. I don’t take blessings in my life for
granted. I’m grateful for all the good and even bad things because I know that everything is working together for my good. I’m in a place where I’m learning to forgive myself, release the guilt of past mistakes and drop shame that isn’t mine to carry. I’m nurturing a healthier relationship with myself that is full of positive affirmations, kindness, patience, self discipline and
self care. I take care of my body because it’s home and the only one I will ever have.
The necessary changes this sensation points to are simple. First, it tells me to continue trusting in God and holding dear to His promises for my life. The quality of my life has improved ever since I’ve been doing that and it’s a change I want to continue. Additionally, I would like to be
more appreciative of the love in my life. I want to pour out more love, take better care of my
people and ride with them through thick and thin. Lastly, it’s important that I never give up on
myself, no matter how hard things become or how many times I fall.
Our body is always saying something. Maybe because they recognize emotions even before the
minds do. So pay attention to the rhythm of your breathing, the ache in your joints, the flutter in
your stomach, the itch in your palm. In conclusion, pay attention to your body.
Thank you for reading 🤍
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Grace. Growth. Greatness. ✨