I knew last year was kind of overwhelming for me, and I couldn't get to strongly key into something very important I should have believed in. Yes, I am a Christian, and I trust in God, but it was as if I didn't let myself fully commit to the one who has the power to fix the impossible when it comes to some simple day-to-day blessings, I was so sure that God could do it but not to some certain level. Even when I do hear and see how big miracles are done and how people get healed of different diseases which, from the perspective of humans, cannot be cured, perhaps I didn't know a big miracle like things happening in an instant could happen to me.
As the new year begins, I find myself committing to something I haven't found myself doing to the highest level. To make it more understanding, I woke up very early, around December last year, I can't remember the date precisely, and when I checked my WhatsApp, I saw my younger sister's message with a question of when we are getting married because she wants to get married the following year which is 2025.
As serious as the question was, it was so funny to me, and I couldn't stop laughing. I saw my big sister, too said next year is hers. I already typed that I wasn't ready this year because I feel it's something I don't see happening so fast. The truth is, I also want to get married because, in two weeks, I would be 31, but it was kind of funny to see it happening this year, knowing there's not been any guy in the picture, but I believe God can do the impossible.
When I saw how my sisters were so sure that this year 2025 would be one in which they'd be getting married, I quickly changed mine and said I would love to get married this year, too and that there's nothing too hard for God. I saw the faith in them, and that made me push into such a mindset.
So, at the beginning of this year which started yesterday, I find myself anchored in one word: faith. This word embodies my hopes, my prayers and the energy I want to channel for the coming year as regards every aspect of my life, mostly my marital life. To me, faith is more than just belief; it's trusting in God's timing and schedule, in His promises, and being assured that what I hope for will align perfectly with His will.
My focus on a strong faith didn't just sprout out of nowhere; it was a result of the conversation with my sisters concerning their marital status and other spheres of life, and this also sparked something within me, promising myself that I would not waiver in my faith in God this year. My sister then encouraged me to take an intentional step towards manifesting my desires by coupling faith with gratitude.
I wrote in my diary according to her all the prospects in a man and to always say and apply them in my life each day and night while appreciating God for giving me such kind of man I want. Her advice was simple, yet profound because since I started proclaiming those qualities in a man that I want, I saw myself being sure of a breakthrough this year, one that my prayers are already answered. "Make sure to thank God every morning and night for bringing such a man to you by faith and wait for the manifestation," she said.
At first, I was like, "Could this be that simple? But as I reflected on her words, I realized the power of this practice. Faith requires action.
The prospects I desire in a man aren't extravagant or that I want only a perfect man, which is impossible to find, but they are rooted in values that matter to me. A man of faith, someone who shares my love for God and strives to grow spiritually. A man who is kind at heart, one who has a family-oriented mindset and understands the importance of mutual respect.
Faith, as I have learned isn't passive. It's not just sitting idly and waiting for things to fall into place, but taking action, taking the steps even when the path ahead is not smooth. Even when the waiting is long or kind of delayed, trusting in God's timing should be my focus.
This year, the word for me is faith and holding onto it, not just finding the right partner but in every area of my life. I want to have the faith that even in moments that I am not certain, He is working out the best for me while also moulding me into the person I need to be, not just for myself but for my future partner.
As I start this new year, my heart is full of gratitude and expectation. Not because of anything I've done but because of the one who has my future in His hands. Faith is my anchor, the word of the year for me, and my guiding star. With it, I walk forward in hope, trusting in the beauty of what will come eventually.
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