I'm grateful last week is over. Not sure about how this week will be, but hopefully not worse. There were many moments that I just looked up into the sky to find some solace in the endless. There wasn't much. Although, now in retrospective, maybe there was.
Lily's mom is becoming more brazen with her lies about me, using words like harassment and abuse - not only from my side, but from basically everyone. And there's nothing I can do about that. I can't proof that it never happened. Nobody can proof a negative. But it doesn't matter. The first reaction of many people is to believe that, because too many times it wasn't believed, and women and children ended up dead because of it. I know why the legal system has gone to the other extreme. But it still hurts to see the attitude towards me change immediately, without any need of proof.
I have to wait for a hearing to be able to defend myself. And what I do have proof is of her abuse against me, the blackmailing, the manipulation using Lily to hurt me. And a lot of people who were with me and saw how calm I reacted when she was insulting me or (verbally) attacking me otherwise. Because it did happen quite often.
It's the patience that I need that is incredibly hard to keep up. Keeping my calm in the face of something so unfair - not that much against me, that I can handle somewhat well by now, but against Lily. Having trust as only weapon, trust that she will see through the lies that she's probably being fed.
So, what's the good? The rising dramatics in her lies could be a sign of getting nervous. Because it's several contact calls that she got from institutions by now. And it's not going to stop.
And then, the cat. Nero ate poison a week ago and was in hospital for 8 days, piling up a juicy bill of $670. Minimum wage in Ecuador is $480 for a full time job. Even for me, $670 is not pocket money but eats into my savings. Which it didn't have to, thanks to Nero and my community stepping in. The little bugger has made a lot of friends in the back patio of Subs, where he likes to linger during the day and scrounge fries or chicken. People love him, and gladly helped to cover the bill, so it became manageable for me.
Tomorrow they're going to pull his feeding tube out, and then he can go out into the garden again. He really, really wants that. His possible demise hit me hard, and opened up the floodgates from all the tensions that I've been carrying around with the Lily situation. I did cry because of that before, but last week? Oh boy.
It didn't help that I was also somewhat sick, still am. Exhausted, maybe, it's not that much of a cold anymore. I have to rest, but I don't feel like it. I want to get things done quickly, as always. And I'm moving forward on many projects, making great progress. Just not writing as much as I'd like, but the diary on my 
Might be being tired today as well. The cat is a night reveler, so I woke up several times from weird noises, mainly the cat either eating or pooping or cleaning itself. And of course it took several naps, for which it jumped on my bed and made himself comfortable right where he would wake me.
So far for my selection from last week. I didn't take any pictures today, yet. I'll probably go for a walk now, take some, and then prepare dinner before going to self defense classes with Kami.
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