Taking in the beauty of life
It's been a while since my last Ketamine therapy update. The treatments have been really good and I am really beginning to notice a difference in my thoughts and my outlook on life.
I have my fourth treatment in a few hours and I have been spending the day trying to prepare. I am planning on doing some meditation and breath work before my appointment so that I can be in the right mind space for it.
My second treatment was pretty wild. It was not the greatest experience while I was under, but that bad trip ended up actually being such an amazing experience for me. It was a pretty personal experience, so I won't be sharing it here, but one thing it taught me was that even the bad trips have such a strong message and with Ketamine, you really need to be open to whatever the medicine has to tell you.
I was feeling a bit low after that second treatment because of how uncomfortable it was, but later that night, I did a really peaceful yoga and had some of my Granddaddy Purple cannabis. I was able to slow my mind down and really begin to take in the entire experience that I went through about two hours prior. That yoga session was one of the best sessions I have ever had and it was such a beautiful experience and it taught me the lesson about why the treatment went the way it did. Afterwards, I felt at peace with how the treatment went and I was really looking forward to my next treatment.
My third treatment was amazing. It was such a special experience. My dose has been getting higher with each treatment, and with a higher dose, you experience a stronger dissociative effect. During the treatment, I was so far disconnected from my body and it felt like I was just a spirit on a journey to learn the intricacies of life and the human mind.
During my treatment, I was able to feel our little grandbaby's energy. It was the most special experience I have ever had. He was only with us for three short months, but so many people loved him and he had a huge impact on so many people's lives. He was a special little guy and I will never forget the time that I was able to spend with him.
My intention for the third treatment was to open myself up to the love I have for others and the love they have for me. My wife found a ketamine playlist for opening your heart and it was such a great playlist. It is crazy how music has such a strong impact on the entire ketamine journey. I am going to be using the same playlist for my treatment tonight and I will be picking up where my treatment finished.
Ketamine is an amazing medicine and I can't wait for it to become more widely accepted as a mental health treatment. It is nice having the love for life back. Life is a beautiful thing.
