Fuck my life. I think it is better if I am gone. Fucking bitches and their thinking. So fucking illogical, they alraedy bleed the shit out of you and wat do they do bleed you some more from the money they used to pay you out they want to get that shit too. And the worst part I speak about it to my mum and her thinking is, yes I should give that money to the bitch. Both of them are fucking crazy.
Because I have no income they insist I should just bend over and let the money I am using to start over from the years I have put into the broken relationship to be just thrown away and I should just curl up and calm the fuck down.
Fucking shit. Shit fucken. I mean, what kind of thinking is that. I am trying to get myself in order and then I get advice from an old woman who tells me since you have no job you should give that money back to her. Just so that our daughter can have all the gadgets and what ever she wants in Australia.
Fucking stupid idiots. What is child support? The amount is based on income. My mum thinks because I was paid out for my half of the total assets I should consider it as income because it was paid to me from the proceed of a divorce. Fuck that!!!
I think I should just end it all. Maybe that will solve everyone problem because frankly this old woman can't and don't know what to do with me, eve when I am trying hard to start over I am given a talking taht basically says to me, go back to AUstralia, even if you are going crAZY, GO BACK THERE AND JUST TAKE IT LIKE A BITCH!
The worst part is if I am back there, if I go crazy I might just go and do something real stupid that will likely send me to jail. And they do not even think ahead if that will happen because in their mind they have told me to be strong, and that is enough, because you know when you tell someone something like that they are very close t getting their shit in order, especially those that have been sowing fucking signs of doing some pretty sketchy shit since they have arrived in the Philippines. Be strong, but don't get a motor bike because it scares me what will happen to you. Don't travel alone since you will no one there to see you what you are doing.
But definitely go back to the place where your mind is driven crazy because that is a HEALTHY place for a crazy mind. All because there are kids involved, my daughter. Yes, go back there, and just take it like a man. Bow down to the stupid bitches of your life who frankly only wants to see things from their fucked up heads.
Fucken bitch!
Fuck my life.
Fuck it all.
How about I churn through my money and just go homeless, that way I will have to looked after by an old lady who frankly does not need another mouth to feed and a man child to look after.
Now I see why raising a kid requires a man around, there needs to be logic and some timing to take the time to give a response especially when the shit they are talking about could practically end up with either a suicide or a homicide.
Fuck me.
Sorry God.
If you like this post, gah I cant guarantee it will continue if I am going to keep myself into this consistent state of mind. Maybe I shouldn't stop myself from drinking everyday, maybe at the very least I will die early of kidney failure or liver disease taht way there is no talk of suicide because drinking yourself to an early grave is a normal thing for these fucking idiots.
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