It has been a few months and I am noticing insane improvement -- I must give praise to God 🙏
For the past decade of my life, I have suffered from hyperthyroidism. It is a condition where the thyroid gland produces too many hormones, resulting in an overactive metabolism. What was perhaps the most obvious, and frustrating, sign was that I could not gain weight; regardless of what I did, I stayed at 110 lbs. And I continued to stay this weight, year after year after year...
My every day life became a shade of a nightmare. No appetite, always forced myself to eat, never gaining any weight in spite of that force. Constant anxiety, to the point where I couldn't leave the house most days. A resting heart rate of 110 bpm. Days filled with nothing but doom, gloom, and endless mood swings.
It was about 5 years ago -- having finally learned of the condition for myself -- that I finally had my suspicions confirmed: my bloodwork showed that my thyroid hormones were high, an obvious indication of hyperthyroidism. Struggling with hyperemesis gravidarum pregnancies my entire motherhood, the effects were compounded, and I eventually suffered two miscarriages due to healthcare's inability to take me seriously.
There is no cure for hyperthyroidism. The only options are: medication, radioiodine therapy, or, in extreme cases, surgical removal of the thyroid.
However, I didn't like any of those approaches -- so I turned to God instead.
I think most people are under the impression that if one turns to God that they will magically be healed (so long as they are "righteous" enough). However, this simply isn't true. Anyone can turn to God, and so long as their intentions are true, He will guide them.
So I asked God for help -- and I received answers 🙏 I cut out a huge amount of gluten. I began to take vitamins religiously. I cut down my recreational smoking significantly, for the first time since I started smoking over 12 years ago! 🙏 I incorporated stretching into my routine. I asked God for help with patience and understanding in order to cut down my stress. I came to terms with past traumas.
It has been 3 months since the passing of our little baby, Elijah 👼 and I have noticed insane improvement. After nearly 6 years of being unable to gain weight, I have managed to gain 25 lbs! 🙏🙏 I no longer experience a racing heart beat, or struggling to breathe as my throat swells up. I am no longer at the mercy of my anger and anxiety. I actually have ENERGY -- I do not feel exhausted every second of my day! 😭🙏
I give thanks to God! 🙏🙇♀️ I know that in the midst of His answers, I was actively sinning. I was extremely prideful, I was seeking comfort from the dead as opposed to God, I was praying to Mary... In spite of this, God did not abandon me. I recognize the errors of my ways, and I am going to try and do better -- this time, and every time afterwards.