Don't you also find yourself stuck with yourself?

I mean I'm a smart person, really, could be worse. But having somewhat of an intelligence can sometimes fall on your feet.

Especially when intelligence is paired with sympathy and ethics. That makes you see the world for what it is and you start being disgusted and not willing to participate anymore. Depending on where you live it is for the better or the worse.

I live in a country whose mentality is, hmmmmmm, short minded, less exploring, clinging to the olds, scared of change?

Or isn't it?

The politics certainly are and while our government has managed to pretend we are on the better side of this world, reality is, that we are far from being so.

16+ years of one leader/ party in power could be considered somewhat of a dictatorship. Especially when ever since things had slowly start to deteriorate, to go down a bad lane.

Every 5th German is suffering poverty right now and will likely never be able to make it out of this vicious cycle. Yet there is this promise people fall for, in constant hope that one day they will make it.

While most of the population can barely afford their rent anymore, even when working full-time, I wonder how that is suppose to happen. And things are not going to be on the bright side anytime soon, it became even worse with Corona and the measurements this "dictatorship" are setting in place.

What sucks most is, that they are having this false halo above them. True, compared to other "leaders" in the world we still have it good here, but after all there are certainly no saints in power.

The CDU, and many other parties, are, yes I call them criminals, because they have acted like criminals throughout the last 16 years. And they are continuing to do so, while the rest of the world thinks we are this great country.

They cut down on the health care system, police, public transportation, they haven't invested anything in digital development, our health department is still using faxes to communicate...FAXES...can you believe it? You could go on with what went wrong behind the scenes.

The wealth of Germany, everyone is talking about belongs to not even 10% of the population. Guess what the rest of us is having? NOTHING with little chance to get out of it. Some who are lucky with the right connections will make it and be given a chance. For everyone else there are no resources anymore and it seems that it is not even wanted.

It is fair to say that the government has ruined this country for its population the last 16+ years and I'm predicting that we wont see a good path the upcoming years. Despite what will be said in the media.

So if you ever hear Germany is doing fine, take it as meaning " the upper 10%" are doing fine. Because you will not hear that the other 90% are suffering and struggling more and more. That you will hear on TV when civil unrest begins.

See, funny thing is that I wanted to write about a total different topic. I wonder who made it down here reading anyways. You can let me know if you have. My subconscious had me type the above 543 words because I guess I had to let it out.

I wanted to write a little bit about procrastination but I will do so another day now lol. I guess procrastination has something to do with realizing in what social shit-hole we are living and then suddenly you ask yourself what makes sense these days, and then you realize that what makes sense for you doesn't make sense for the upper 10% cause that would mean less money in their pockets.

But I have to overcome my procrastination and maybe I am not even doing so. Maybe society just makes me believe so because I'm not working my ass of 40+ hours for the minimum wage after finishing highschool, a vocational training, college and have been working for some years.

Perhaps they wanna make me think I'm procrastinating but personally I have been developing myself a little bit. So I think. But this doesn't really pay out money wise. One might argue I should be smarter and monetize my life but that is what has brought the world into the state it is in now.

Big minds have died in poverty and got ridiculed during lifetime, just to be heroes centuries later. So all is good I guess. For now. I will have to get a shitty job when staying here, but maybe the burden can be shared and not everything is resting on my shoulders alone.

Maybe I get lucky and someone gives me a chance to pursue something different. But I need a partner to do so, that's for sure. Or maybe I just have to figure out what it is what I wanna do. But once I figured it out I have to pay for it, at least in this country and who is paying my rent then? Ahhh this vicious cycle of procrastination by overthinking.

See, made it to the topic at the end and will have to work on it. Overthinking hinders me from freeing myself out of the situation I'm in.

Done with my rant which ended up being a total freewrite.

FREE write the world! FREE write your mind!

For all those reading it to this point, thinking what the hell is she writing about and why is she bitching and crying like this? For all those thinking stop bitching and complaining and get you ass up. You may be right but I suppose that is what maaaaaaaannnyyyyyyy people in this world are thinking and sometimes it is good to just let it out. Unfiltered, emotional, maybe overthought but it opens a valve and who knows, maybe it leads to a personal development.

Letting thoughts out can be good, and showing weakness _{some might call it weak when talking about stuff like the above} is a big asset these days. Because it mirrors being a human. Only few are on the constant high wave, in no need to complain or in a situation where they have the tools and assets to improve their personal life, but mostly materialistic.

If we would improve personally, inside, it may be a different world period.

Now I'm done! ;)