For the past eight months, it has felt like I have been living inside a case study on pressure.
Not theory. Not online debate. Real pressure.
My family structure has been affected… my sanity too.
I seem to have lost the ability to cry, but often in 2025 i felt like i should cry. My sleep especially suffered. And when you dont sleep things tend to spiral even more. A cortisol cocktail!
When you run a property, when you tie your name to a physical place, when you layer in experiments like Hive Hub on top of a working hotel, you are stacking systems on systems. Revenue streams, partnerships, volunteers, tenants, events, blockchain integrations. It looks exciting from the outside. From the inside it is coordination, cash flow timing, contracts, trust. All this calls for strength, yet often my brain called for me to just give up.
The rental contract that was meant to stabilize part of the lakefront operation and my life… it broke. What seemed like a win turned into a big weak point.
It was not just friction. Not just a misunderstanding. It was a complete fracture in our life and plans.
And because that agreement was structurally tied into the physical space where Hive Hub was operating, it did more than just disrupt a tenant relationship.It ended Hive Hub as it existed.
That one fracture cascaded. Revenue assumptions changed. Physical control of space had to be reasserted. Systems I thought were solid had to be rewritten. The pitch rental model had to be clarified. Commissions rethought. Authority reestablished.
Kitchen remodeled. The brand Del Lago needed to make a comeback. Conversations that should have been tighter from the start had to be tightened the hard way, deposits and damages collected.
The romance of entrepreneurship and being your own boss, becomes the anchor taking you to the bottom of the ocean.
My instinct, as so often in life was Head down and get to work.
No drama. No public spiral. Fix it. Protect the asset. Rebuild structure. Hire lawyers, open new bussiness licenses as the rental contract had been for 10 years so we had closed everything. Oof 🤦♂️
What choice was there but to reclaim control of our prime lakefront space that I have spent years developing. If something threatens the long term integrity of Del Lago, I move toward it, not away.
And to be clear, that instinct is not wrong. The property is more clearly defined now. Operational authority is sharper. The pitch concept for any future rentals is clearer. I am less naive about where external influence can quietly erode internal vision.
But here is the harder truth.
When you operate in constant rebuild mode, everything becomes urgent. Every decision feels high leverage. Every hour feels like it should be optimized. And slowly, without meaning to, you become the guy who is always solving something.
Family time gets put on the calendar but easily skipped. A quiet evening becomes mental accounting. You justify it because you are protecting the future. Because you are building something that will outlast you. This is for your kids. But do the kids care if they only get tired you, irritated you, rushed you.
i struggle with this balance of building for the future at the expense of the now.
While the seasons stack and my babies turn into teens.
This internal mythology, grind now relax later, im really doubting it… when do i get to cash in on the hard work and relax… wheres my cash out swimming in gold like Scrooge mcduck.
Makes me think how the current moment on Hive has similirities.
Price is down. Market cap is small. Confidence is uneven. There are real conversations about DHF spending, stewardship, direction. It is not the euphoric phase where everyone feels like a genius. It is the uncomfortable phase where conviction is exposed.
Should hive users relax or tighten the belt and get to work??
Just like with the rental contract, there are two responses available. Detach and say it is not worth the energy. Or lean in and reinforce the structure. Tighten governance expectations. Build projects when they are least glamorous. Power up when it feels least rational.
When the ecosystem is small, marginal effort matters more. When sentiment is low, signal stands out. This is when builders define the next cycle.
But I am also cautious of repeating my personal pattern at ecosystem scale.
If I treat every downturn as an all consuming emergency, I will replicate the same imbalance. Hive deserves effort, yes. But not at the cost of my actual life. Not at the cost of being present with the people this whole thing is supposedly for.
The end of Hive Hub version #1 was not ideological. It was structural. It was about control and contracts and space. It hurt, but it clarified something important.
If Hive Hub comes back, and I think it will, it will not be dependent on external rental arrangements that can destabilize it. It will be integrated directly into the core of what we control. No loose edges. No shared authority confusion. Cleaner incentives. Stronger foundation.
Hive itself is at a similar crossroads.
Rebuild smarter, not louder. Do more with less.
Put your head down, yes. But know exactly why you are doing it. Know what you are protecting. Know what you are building toward. Push for accountability and KPI’s
I am still choosing to lean in to Hive. To power up. To participate when it is a bit uncomfortable.
Just this time, I am trying to do it with a family/community first mindset.
To me it is obvious that all the norms need shaking.
Will those who have held sway allow for a pivot?
Guess we will see
And so it goes….
