I knew a guy when I was younger who was troubled like this and sadly he did ultimately succeed in ending his life. I hope that isn’t your fate because there are so many things worth living for, you just have to spend some time to find them and not focus on the darkness so much. Granted there are lots of layers to why people feel these ways that I don’t know but it’s unfortunate the demons some of us possess so strongly.
RE: Andy is dead and a few other things