Lamentations to start October

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I walked down to Radlof Park early in the morning and sat on a bench next to the river. I just had to get away from everything.

As things went down hill my wife starting more and more. I don't know if the sleeping tablets the doctor gave her helped but she got brutally honest. I learnt a lot about every mistake I made over the last 30 years. I learnt a lot about my attitude and existence.

Through it all I had to keep reminding myself. Whether seh meant anything she said or not, her emotions will trigger mine. If I don't focus, I'll eventually clone her emotional state. Her fears and frustrations will all become mine.

With all of the distractions over the last month I forgot what it's like to be an Empath.

I sat on the bench watching the river, listening to the sounds of nature. Slowly all of the hurting and frustration drained away. I felt nature recharging me, realizing this is what they talk about when they say most Empaths recharge in nature.

Strangely I realised the only thing I can do from here on out is to believe and pray. What God gives will be, at its right time and in it's right place.
I have never felt this vulnerable while being strong before