When a Goodbye is Both Happy and Sad

It's Friday again and I'm feeling sad because I know that tomorrow we'll have face-to-face classes. I don't like the thought of changing my sitting position suddenly. I'm sad because I hate losing friends, but at the same time, I'm happy for him. We've been friends for almost a month and he always made my Saturdays great. I learned a lot from him about life. Unfortunately, he dropped all his subjects, which makes me feel heartbroken. I just wanted to share my feelings with you.

Last night's news shocked me. Maybe it's not a big deal for my other classmates, but it's a mix of emotions for me. I'm happy for my friend because he got a lifetime opportunity, but I'm sad because it feels like my circle has been shattered. Going to a new place outside of your comfort zone can be tough. I feel like our friendship was real, and the bond we had was unlike any other classmate.

During our first class, I wasn't ready when he came close to me and offered me some food. I accepted it, and then he came even closer and started talking about why he took the course and what his expectations were. I'm a polite person and I try to show interest in other people's stories, but it felt awkward to have someone open up their life to me in just one meeting. I'm the kind of person who doesn't get too close to anyone in the first meeting. I prefer to wait for a month or two before making the first move to be friends with someone.

But he was different. Maybe it's because he's ten years older than me, or maybe it's because I don't have a real brother, but our bond became closer, and we now chat privately. I appreciate how exclusive our relationship is. He lives near the university, and I don't. When something comes up abruptly, he's the one who's always willing to go to the university. Thanks to technology, he can receive my word work on time and print it out for me. It makes me feel more comfortable as will relief the stress

At school, our classmates suddenly started looking at us together as we laughed with each other. He has a great sense of humor, but I noticed something weird about him. Sometimes, he stops and pauses without any conjunction. He's the closest friend I have in the classroom. We even wait for each other at the university gate and go to class together as a pair. It feels like I'll have a ghostly feeling on Saturdays without him. I don't mind being late as class last until 8PM because he's always there with his naughty sense of humor. It'll be dead air without him as my seatmate.

On the other hand, I was also happy for him. He said, "I'm not getting any younger anymore, and opportunities await me. I have to dive in." He opened up about his life before, and I honestly learned a lot of things from him, including his past experiences in life, career, and love.

He was assigned to a far district, which is why he had to drop all of his enrolled subjects. He couldn't manage his time anymore. But we promised to stay in touch, and he still calls me sometimes. I'm emotional because I wasn't ready for this sudden change. We had plans to take the professional exam together, and it's also going to be his second professional license, just like mine. He was a rare friend, brother, and father figure to me. I limit myself to having only one or two real friends instead of a large circle of friends and they been gone feels like empty inside

Starting over at school will feel like the first day of class again. I'll have to sit next to someone new, and I'm not sure if we'll get along. But it's okay. It might take a moment to adjust, but I'm sure I'll find a way to make new friends. (or not)

Having friends is a blessing, especially when they help you grow and are always there for you. It's not about the length of time you spend with them, but how genuine they are. I treasure the memories I have with my friend. I'm honored to have been a part of his life, and even though there's no guarantee that we'll meet again in person, thanks to technology, we can stay in touch as friends. It's just hard to lose real and rare friends like him.