I try in the present to find tools to support my future because I have a low tolerance for frustration and anxiety caused by the current economic situation in my country, hence a few months ago I enrolled in a Zumba class here very close to where I live. I go 3 days a week, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday, it is an activity next to my beautiful lake of Maracaibo, in my portentous land, burning like our beloved sun, lively and disciplined with its own desire.

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In addition to other activities I practice outdoors every Sunday, At 6:30 am I join a group for a gentle morning yoga practice and seek balance, I do it to gain respect from the whole world by showing that my main judge (my self-esteem) validated this skill.

The practice is free, to feed my cycle of emotional nourishment and gratitude because it is my duty and right to keep learning on this earthly plane.

Undoubtedly, citizen reconstruction in my country is an issue that many people do not want to prepare for. That my country lives and has this opportunity to create awareness in the midst of so much chaos. And although it is a personal decision, my right ends where my neighbor's right begins. Without selfishness, without bringing in politics, and without forgetting that in school we were taught morals and civics (norms of civility) without asking, the slogan of educating you in values creates an emotional circle of protection.

Evidently, everyone does what he/she wants and prefers. I have heard some people "Not all of us are who we say" or "I don't give a damn what happens to others" and I shudder to think of the consequences of that decision.

Citizen reconstruction requires fresh minds

Let us give ourselves permission to flow and not to push, not to run over, I see this every day. When we flow, we create. When we push, we overexert ourselves and exhaust ourselves.

My country is in a strong socioeconomic crisis, it is beaten, and very run over, but still, it is gallant, reckless, and determined, with a lot of nonverbal languages to interpret.We are people of pure fine wood, dammit! And we have the most important thing: our human capital with so much desire to progress and evolve, even with a lot of fear for the mere fact of thinking, and talking differently.

I have faith that next year the airs of change will come to my homeland and that bittersweet taste left in the mouth by the excessive controls of our monetary cone will come to an end and I can shout at the top of my lungs "we won" we are a free country with examples of creativity and positive learning for our children who have grown up in a "we can't, "there is no money" "there is not enough money" or our efforts have not been enough, as far as possible

We must hold our tongue to respond and not react

Yesterday I made one of those comments that you can't let pass because you think that someone has to say it, but one of those that your body asks you to bite your tongue, and I didn't, it is a lesson that you learn with time... To hold your tongue and not react when you don't like or "don't like" something like this dialogue, and who cares about that? Here the most important thing at the moment is to see how you solve your life to be able to survive, Venezuela is such a rich country, and its people starve, eat if you can, and talk about happy Christmas. Don't fuck with me.

I spent years growing old because of that. Trying to comply with everyone, drowning my life with "yes, criminals" that even made me sick, so that at the end of the road those whom I helped, just the same, destroyed me verbally - and they still do it for complaining and talking about the changes that must come for my country, because I feel that in this dialogue nothing positive comes for the dignity and good living of the city where the economy is not planned, they only plot, deceive. They do not undertake, do not negotiate, do not invest because they only arrange their business, and their interests and destroy, and embezzle.

The six decades have given me the gift of choice with tweezers, the battles in which I want to participate. The need to protect my closest circle has allowed me to fill it with peace and satisfaction, and obviously with trust. Every day I become more convinced that I don't want to "hoard a bank of happy moments", no; I want to be in a state of permanent joy.

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Will you join me?

I hope to have a great January 2023... full of enthusiasm, sorry to wipe the slate clean with the country's situation. And as the past can be used to nurture the present with citizen awareness, be clear that when you point a finger at someone else, there are three pointing back at you.

May we all connect deeply today with what I am talking about in this post so that the weight of life does not make us lose the enthusiasm of the new day, of the sun shining, of the birds singing, and of the gift of breathing.

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In the images, you can appreciate the majesty of our Lake Maracaibo, with the "Z" of our Zulianidad our identity, and our sense of belonging to our land and country. Also, my great sunrise from my gaze in my home.