Running away is costly.
Just the other day, I realized how costly and exhausting it was to run away. All the travels, the movement, the constant paranoia and the need to escape weren't exactly cheap. When I associate that word, all I could think about was how John McAfee attempted to run away from government and lived a thrilling and dangerous life. Those things are expensive and throughout it all, it seemed mentally exhausting too as reports mentioned that he also suffers from paranoia. In the end, he died, hanging himself from inside the prison.
Welcome to my brain dump, itโs morning and when I am able to sit down, sipping a cup of coffee while contemplating about life and emptying it out a little.
Some of us run away from something and that running away could also manifest to an addiction. We "escape" from the reality that seems bleak but really, all there is needed was perhaps a little more accountability or responsibility. I can't talk about others but from my view, I ran away too from the responsibility that I should have done a long time ago.
When you're in a state of shock, fear, and confusion, it's hard to think clearer. Only now, after quite a few years, I realized how damaging and how hard it is to fix the after effects of me running away from things. It stalled progress and it stalled a lot of things in my life that if I were to do things back then, everything would have been a lot easier now. While there is no use of crying over spilled milk, the best action that I could do for myself is really starting it now.
These days, I've come to realization that the only thing i am running from is definitely myself. To think that I did extreme measures for it all was just beyond me. These days, all I thought about was "why" and sometimes I still can't find justification from it.
Anyhow, yesterday I had a lot fun re-blogging and also a little brain refresh. I ended up learning a new thing or two and read some good stuff. Just as I predicted, somehow Tuesday was always that slow day where things feel a little bland and dull. In my attempt to fix it, at least I would say I was successful in doing so.
I need my second cup of coffee! see you around..
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