Once in a while, you might find yourself stuck like I did due to Information overload. For those who don't know about it, that is a state when you read and receive too much information in a short period of time. These days, it’s easy to fall into that state given the nature of our interconnected world and easily accessible information. This is the recurrent topic in my life that I keep having issues with. As for these days, my source of these comes from the recent theological study and various things I read to improve my writings and train of thoughts.

There are times in my life when I feel like I was stuck in my own web of information unable to untangle the knots. As I got stuck in that spider web of information, I became paralyzed. It got worse when I started to be a lot more critical to myself.

Here’s the thing, the more I read quality works, the more I realized my own shortcomings. I revised and re-read all of my past and present works and realized that I have grown but not in the way I wanted it to be. Perhaps, it is my own harsh judgment but in the present moment, I think I could do better.

Although the thing is, my goal for a long time has always been documenting life. That is for the reason that I can't rely on my own memory much. And I wanted to find spaces where I am not limited to just 240 characters or less. So, this is where I ended up growing and sharing my life for the last 8 years.

And despite that this has been an online journal of mine, there’s that sense of weight to write with some sense with that kind of invisible responsibility and when it comes to writing on hive, I don’t want to just “shit post”, though this is subjective. To me, I like putting some effort into what I am putting out there.

Conventionally, writings can be divided into 4 types which some of you might be aware of. It’s narrative, descriptive, expository and argumentative(persuasive). But there are more to this branch and you can actually combine a couple of writing styles into one. This year, somehow I want to delve into this very basic concept of writing and actually grasp the idea of those. As I notice that sometimes I tend to actually mix them too much, the message I am trying to convey can be a bit blurred.

Whenever I am writing something for the public, I rush to edit and click publish. I rush to publish rather than assessing some of its possible logical fallacies or perhaps even the purpose of sharing said topics. But when you think too much about technicalities like I do as well, sometimes it is its own result of information overload and makes you stuck.

For a long time, I followed this concept, halfway in, halfway out. While I see the merit of it, in reality, to actually achieve something you have to truly believe in what you do. This is something I also recently learned from Luffy, that main character on One piece. He simply believes in his dream to become not just a pirate but the king of the pirates. He wanted to find that One Piece which eventually grants him the title to the King of all seas. Despite everyone saying it is impossible, he does it anyway.

Where am I going with this? Well, just like Luffy, I am learning not to overthink. He doesn’t second guess his decision and believes in whatever he does. He is very adaptable and always improves in each of his encounters. It’s not always perfect and sometimes he’s almost defeated too. But he’s always one step closer to his dreams even when the dream itself seems pretty impossible to achieve.

Perhaps, not everything can be so carefully written and crafted. Sometimes, what matters is the clear message behind what we’re sharing or documenting. From this onward, I am striving to write in that direction where I don’t want to overwhelm anybody and am going to constantly ask myself these simple questions, “ What is the purpose of writing/sharing this with anyone?”- a question I failed to ask all these years while actually writing here.