I'm not in the mood to write in truth. Worries and disappointment roaming around my thoughts. I feel bothered by the situation we're having now. It's fine if it's me, I can take that but if it's my loved ones. Damn, I can't take it, and just by thinking of it, my tears are going to fall. An uneasy feeling is breaking my heart being afraid of what's going to happen. I hope nothing bad happens because if it does I'm going to curse this world.

The images have nothing to do with my writing this time. Apologies in advance to Hive account@tattoodjay and Hive account@elizacheng because this will not be fun walking. It will be about walking when I was really disappointed earlier. It's about soothing my thoughts to avoid the darkness in my heart. It's about helping myself not to worry much even if I don't know how I will be. Let me tell you now, focus on the images and not the writings, or else you might be disappointed. Again sorry in advance.

It was at dawn when my mother woke me up while I was sleeping. I could tell from her voice the worried sound. I could tell her heart was trembling even though she didn't show it. I was wondering why even though I didn't want to learn what's troubling her. I just woke up, everything was blank because I was unsure what's going on. She just told me to send clothes to my brother where it's in the quarantine facility. I was still confused but even so, I wanted to remain positive.

Weeks by now my brother was working as a Rescue-volunteer before he's in the isolation. He's working in the different departments in our municipality but because of his background and knowledge. He's popular in this sort of thing. He was being assigned with a memo that he couldn't refuse. Yes, he was told to temporarily replace the Rescue personnel because they were in isolation.

Just last night he didn't come home because that night they sent a person who died. Not sure if that person was positive of covid or not because he was dead on arrival. Even so, the nurse asked them if that person was a member of Phil-Health or a Philippines Health Insurance in our country. When they said he was, that dead person was being tested if he would be positive or not. Sounds fishy, don't you think? It's not just being stupid, it's absurd.

To make sure of our safety, my brother didn't go home. He was afraid that we would be in quarantine if he went home. We respect it's necessary to help because he has the knowledge and obligations if someone needs it. But come on, now that he's in the quarantine facility the health department in the municipality is not offering help or showing support.

There's no hazard pay according to him because this was not just the first time he was being assigned. Just because he was a volunteer, no support from the municipality and even benefits? Damn…

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ABOUT ME

_{Paul is the name but prefers to be called mrnightmare that feels like living in the dream. A country boy and a dreamboy (dreamer) who likes to stay in a small village even though it means abandoning the future to become a seaman. The passion is writing but not sailing in the vast ocean. Don't wonder if the face will not be shown, this is better where the words can flow smoothly. Come, have fun with me talking about life events and random activities. It's fun to learn about life, don't hesitate, let's figure it out as we continue enjoying staying in this world.}