Would you rather do without legs, or one of your arms?

After three years of hip issues (I've fixed them and I am pain free, finally!) I fell off my bike and hurt my elbow. Last week I got an MRI and we're pretty sure there's a fracture there, at least at the time of writing - by the time I go to write this post, I might know for sure, and will add a post script, but it's looking like a the top of the radial bone is fractured. Yup.

I'm trying very, very hard not to be right verily pissed off.

It's been a month of not surfing, not chopping vegies for dinner, and cradling my arm, trying to bring down the inflammation and hoping like hell I didn't fracture it.

This means a longer recovery, just when I really, really was excited about surfing again. I felt strong again and was surfing well - but I could actually surf even with a painful hip, and with this, I can't paddle, so nope, nope, nope.

Another month or two crying. I'm actually quite brave and taking it on the chin, as they say, but some days I have a bit of a meltdown.

So, I keep strengthening my lower body and doing all the right things - vitamin D (apparently I was low, according to blood tests), vitamin C, collagen powder, zinc, calcium. What am I missing? At least I can still swim - breaststroke is okay, freestyle isn't. The other day I swam in my harem pants and a bra because I forgot my bathers and it was lovely in the sunshine. It should not be this warm in the middle of May.

And I can go on long walks again without my hip being in abject pain, and I dont need to worry about a hip replacement or osteoarthritis as that's all been tested and MRI'd and advised and I'm good. I'm a pretty hopeful person, most of the time, and after seeing what Dad went through, and the other things people go through, I'm telling myself it's really not that bad.

Turns out I'd rather have one arm and working legs. I can walk, get out of bed, run from zombies, and it's amazing what I can do with my left hand.

Including slap myself for falling off my stupid bike.