I can't say I have had the best past few months, to be honest. I have started a new job that is far away from the city where I reside, I have said things I shouldn't have, I have made mistakes (a lot), I have messed up relationships, and worst of all, I have had to change my sleep routine. But hey, I am thankful for it still. Regardless of it all, I have learned a lot. I have made a lot of realizations, that consequently have/would be a major catalyst in my life. I have realized I am not Superman after all. I had been subjecting myself to some harsh experiences without treatment or anything. Like getting back really late, eating late, doing a freaking lot of house chores, getting drenched in the rain, etc. Until I finally got an epic malaria last few days that feels like the universe reminding me that I am human. It was so bad I couldn't taste the delectable dinner I made yesterday because I lost my sense of taste; pain. I have also faced my fair share of imposter syndrome, one that I can never seem to shake off. One time, my boss told me to be more relaxed and try not to impress. That he is fully aware of my abilities and knows I can do the job. I still ask myself though, can I? It's crazy.
The one thing I have come to realize, is that we all do grind and hustle irrespective of what we are doing. That there is dignity in any legitimate labor. Before now, I was always thinking I wasn't doing much or even anything valuable at all. I always felt like I wasn't doing enough or good enough, and that the person on the street or the other guy across the desk was doing way more than I. I realized... your one competition should be YOU. Striving to be better than what you once were. I am thankful to God almighty, to my family, and to the very few friends I have. Dear reader, you're doing alright. Keep going.