For so long I have only thought of how stressful life has become.
I'm not going to say that life doesn't suck because it does. And there's probably a silver lining lying around somewhere in the pile of all the mess but it's nowhere near seen. Life continues to become more and more exhausting. Yes, it's the same old story but what can I do - I'm more tired of this shit than you can imagine. I can't make lemonades out of the lemons that life throws my way. I guess even life doesn't know Lemon is expensive nowadays.
Well, coming to the point of silver lining, if you can't see it, the chances are, it's not there. Life isn't like that - giving you lemons one second and a bottle of tequila the next. The most inspiring thing in this situation would be to create that bloody silver lining if it isn't there but there's a right time for everything - sadly, mine hasn't come up yet. It's a long waiting game, yet you have to be vigilant in case it passes you by and you fail to catch it.
Do you have those sour days where you feel as if a cat pissed all around you?
As of this moment, I'd continue to be a dash of pissed, a spoonful of demotivated, half a cup of lazy and unproductive, and a whole 100 grams of I can't be bothered with this shit - everything is looking like shit, so, you get what I'm saying? I'm in a mood and the mood is awful. I'd probably tug that silver lining harshly and rip it - I may not show it but it is what it is, my friend.
You see, my mind is in such disarray that I can't stay on a single trail of thoughts for more than a few minutes. And these spiraling thoughts are giving me whiplashes a dozen a day. I start thinking about something in my mind and suddenly something would trigger another. If I didn't know any better, all these are my mind's attempts to not think of the things that bother me very much. But that's alright - I'd happily deal with a chaotic mind. A chaotic mind filled with ever-changing thoughts is better than a mind that is silent. Yes, silent - it's frustrating. Such an eerie feeling - yet it somehow makes me feel lonely and abandoned. You may think I'm crazy and maybe I am.
I don't know about you but this is how my shit day goes.
You may do things differently than I do on these particular days. And please don't tell me that you Keep Calm and bla bla bla because what is that anyway. I know that you have your own way of dealing with proverbial shit and whatever you do is still okay. But whatever you do, don't snap the silver lining thread and it's such a shiny thing, unlike my present days.
Well, let's hear it for the shit days.
