[ESP-ENG] DESPEDIDA A MI MASHKA/ FAREWELL TO MY MASHKA

Todo ocurrio tan rapido, el 30 de diciembre Mahska no mostraba apetito, al cargarlo maullo como si algo le doliera pero no se le veia nada, pense qu epudo haber llevado un golpe o caer de algun lado ya que ultimamente se peleaba con algunos gatos, le di ese dia caldos y agua con una jeringa y al día siguiente aparecio un huequito en su muslo, le aplique antibiotico y cicatrizante en spray, se le seco y mostraba mejoría, empezo a comer y a beber agua, pero a los días volvio la falta de apetito y donde estaba la herida se comenzo a abrir ahora supurando, a partir de allí todo comenzo a empeorar, busque una veterinaria que vive cerca y no me atendio por estar enferma, busque el numero telefonico de otro veterinario que va a domicilio pero nadie lo tenia, fui a una tienda veterinaria y alli estaba el veterinario del cual no habia podido obtener el numero telefónico, El comenzo a tratarlo sin embargo nada mejoró...

Mahska did not show appetite, when I carried him he meowed as if something hurt him but nothing was visible, I thought he could have had a blow or fell from somewhere because lately he was fighting with some cats, I gave him that day broth and water with a syringe and the next day a small hole appeared in his thigh, I applied antibiotic and healing spray, it dried and showed improvement, he began to eat and drink water, but after a few days he returned to the lack of appetite and where the wound was, it started to open and now it was oozing, from there everything started to get worse, I looked for a veterinarian who lives nearby and he did not attend me because I was sick, I looked for the phone number of another veterinarian who goes to my home but nobody had it, I went to a veterinary store and there was the veterinarian of whom I could not get the phone number, he started to treat him but nothing improved. ..

Hoy solo puedo expresar lo que llevo dentro y en mi memoria por lo que fue para nosotros mi gatito Mashka, con sus cualidades ganó el cariño y amor de nuestro hogar como a ninguna mascota que haya tenido, obediente al punto que parecias entender todo lo que te hablabamos, no había roedor ni insecto del cual peocuame cuando tu estabas cerca, si, me acuerdo cuando me libró de aquel roedor que no sabia como sacar de la casa, ese día fué un héroe para mi, la sagacidad y habilidad que le dió Dios para la caza nunca las habia visto en otro gatico como en él, con sus actitudes nos sacó muchas sonisas y tu cariño y tus maullidos al llegar a casa... Has dejado un vacio y un dolor que no todas las personas pueden entender, solo quien ama a su mascota y la convierte en parte de su familia puede saber de ese sentimiento.

Today I can only express what I carry inside and in my memory for what my kitten Mashka was for us, with his qualities he won the love and affection of our home like no other pet I have ever had, obedient to the point that you seemed to understand everything we talked to you, there was no rodent or insect to bite me when you were near, yes, I remember when he freed me from that rodent that I didn't know how to get out of the house, that day he was a hero for me, the shrewdness and ability that God gave him for hunting I had never seen in another kitten like him, with his attitudes he made us smile a lot and your affection and your meowing when you came home. .. You have left an emptiness and a pain that not all people can understand, only those who love their pet and make it part of their family can know this feeling.

Verlo corretear y jugar por el patio era una alegría pero ya solo hay recuerdos y trizteza cuando veo el centro de ese lugar donde ahora duerme eternamente mi Mashka.

Cuando ocurre una perdida tan inesperada inevitablemente viene el cuestionamiento.. hice todo lo que pude o pude haber hecho mas cosas ? esto no hubiese pasado si esto o aquello.. todo esto se convierte en parte del pensamiento que gira junto al dolor de la pérdida. Particularmente llego a la conclusion de que sí hice todo lo que pude por mi Mashka, hice todo lo que pude por sacarte de ese dolor y verte recuperado era lo que mas anhelaba, aunque la atencion veterinaria no nos ayudo a recuperarte.. Me duele al recordar como tomabas mi dedo fuertemente con tu patita entre tus garritas, asi me tomabas de la mano mientras te ponia el tratamiento y te acariciaba tu pelaje tan suave como un peluche deseando aliviarte el dolor.

En medio de todo esto debemos recordar que solo Dios es el dueño de la vida y de todo cuanto hay y que no cae ni un ave a tierra sin permitirlo nuestro padre (mateo 10:29)..

Watching him run around and play in the yard was a joy but now there are only memories and sadness when I see the center of that place where my Mashka now sleeps eternally.

When such an unexpected loss occurs, inevitably comes the questioning...did I do everything I could or could I have done more? this would not have happened if this or that...all of this becomes part of the thinking that goes along with the pain of the loss. I particularly come to the conclusion that I did do everything I could for my Mashka, I did everything I could to get you out of that pain and seeing you recovered was what I longed for, even though the vet care did not help us to get you back.... It hurts me to remember how you held my finger tightly with your paw between your little paws, how you held my hand while I gave you the treatment and caressed your fur as soft as a stuffed animal wishing to relieve your pain.

In the midst of all this we must remember that only God is the owner of life and everything there is and that not even a bird falls to the ground without our father's permission (Matthew 10:29)...

La alegría de tenerte en casa vino de la mano de la gran trizteza que dejaste al irte, lamentablemente te fuiste muy pronto y cuando menos lo esperabamos, lo unico que podemos hacer es dejar al tiempo sanar nuestro corazon y seguir adelante hacia ese futuro en el que siempre te recordaremos porque fuiste una bendición y viviras en nuestros corazones con tus recuerdos siempre mi Mashka.

The joy of having you at home came hand in hand with the great sadness you left behind, unfortunately you left too soon and when we least expected it, the only thing we can do is let time heal our hearts and move forward towards that future in which we will always remember you because you were a blessing and you will live in our hearts with your memories forever my Mashka.