"The moment your heart stopped beating, mine stopped too"
Hello my Dear Hive Pets Community, greetings from the Philippines.
Today I will be sharing the story of my first ever pet, my daughter, Ash. Four long years have passed, and yet, the memory of her passing is still lingering, I would always blame myself for not putting her to sleep, because of my selfishness, I can't give her up and let her fight a painful battle for 6 months, yes, she fought for 6 months, she doesn't deserve it, but because I was selfish, I didn't follow the advice of the Vet to put her to sleep, I didn't know what to do without her, she was with my for 10 long years.
Ash is a very happy dog, she's calm, smart and lovely. I got her when she was only 3 months old. She is a Japanese Spitz crossbreed with Chow Chow.
She's a very healthy and happy dog, she's very obedient, when I and my Mom would have to go, we would talk to her to let her know we will be out and that we'd promise to comeback as soon as possible and of course with treat, being the obedient, good girl that she is, she'd just wait for us in the living room, and would greet us warmly when we come back.
After 7 years, I and my family, moved to the countryside and of course we brought her, she was very happy, although I can sense her anxiety as she was in a new environment, I could sense that she loves the new home, she'd would always walk in the yard with my Mom, in the afternoon, she'd bark to tell us that she wants to go outside.
Year 2019 when we noticed that the tumor in her tummy is starting to grow bigger, and she suffered pyometra, blood keeps on flowing, I thought it was only her period but I noticed that it was much longer than usual, before we moved to the countryside, when I got her health certificate, I asked her Vet if we can do an operation to remove her tumor but the Vet said, Ash is already older and that the operation is too risky, her Vet reminded me that when it is time to put her to sleep, I should let her put to sleep, so she won't suffer. I didn't listen to the Vet 😭💔 instead, I insisted her to fight, I told her everyday that I can't really do it without her and being a good girl like she was, she fought, until March year 2020, six months after her pyometra, my Mom woke me up, at 3 in the morning, and told me that Ash is gone 💔
It took me almost a week, to finally accept that she is gone, and honestly until now, I still can't forgive myself, for being so selfish and for letting her endure 6 more months of pain, she doesn't deserve it, my Mom would always remind me that Ash would happily fight for me, because she loves me so much too, and I really do hope that she already forgave me. So to all the fur mom's and dad's, It is actually a lesson learned, I know it is really hard to let them go, especially when they brought nothing but love and happiness to our lives, but when it is time to let them go, we let them go, let's cherish every moment we have with them, because they have a relatively short life, make sure they are always happy and healthy.
Thank you so much for reading my hardest heart breaking story.
All pictures are taken from my phone, other pictures are enchanced and edited by Canva without using any AI tools.