The year, 2025, has been a mix of everything for me. There was the good, the bad, the unexpected and everything else in between. If, back in January, someone had told me what type of year I would have, I wouldn't have hardly believed them.
It started like every other year. I was full of plans and hopes for the year. Somewhere along the line though, life decided to do its thing. That is, to test and teach me things in ways I didn't see coming.
I had pleasant days, days that I smiled and laughed a lot, and days I was just grateful to be alive. I had moments where I laughed so hard that I forgot about stress. And others where everything felt fine but heavy for no apparent reason.
There were days I knew I was doing okay, and days where I'd just sit, tired of trying to figure things out. At one point, I was so run down I was actually started wishing the year would just be over and I started counting down to December. I started to tell myself, "Maybe this is not my year". I was close to classifying 2025 as my worst year.
Some certain things weren't happening the way I wanted or hoped it would, and I was inspired by nothing to put in effort to make it work. Ultimately, everything changed, though not all at once.
I began seeing things differently. I began to grow, to release some of the things that are not helpful to me anymore, and to know that not every bad moment represents a bad life. I learned that peace is not something that just can just happen to me. I must to choose it, sometimes over and over again.
This year taught me patience. It taught me that sometimes breaking down isn't the end. It's just part of rebuilding.
I did break down a lot, though. I couldn't keep my mind on what I was doing and I was nearly confused about what was happening with everything. But when I crashed I found a way to come back up. Somewhere along the line throughout all of these ups and downs, I found strength. I began to understand myself better - what I could deal with, what I needed to walk away from, and also what really deserved my worry. It actually amazes me how I managed to find clarity through all.
How is my year this far? I would say that it was not exactly the easiest year, but it has been meaningful. It has challenged me in ways that I did not know I could be, it has made me tougher, calmer and I am also a little more confident in myself.
2025, for me, was neither the best year nor the worst - it was somewhere in between. The year was filled with its own struggles and uncertainties, even after all that, I believe what I can say is that I'm proud of where I am now.
This is my entry to the Indiaunited prompt for the week.
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