What Would I Do If Time Stopped for an Hour?

If time froze for an hour, what would I do? If time froze for an hour, what would I do? I felt a deep sense of completion when my mother and father died. I wasn't there for their final moments. I felt guilty and wanted to go back in time. So, if time stopped for an hour, I would go back in time with an additional tool: a time machine.

I would be by my father's side. The painful thing for me was that when he wasn't there, my phone died. It wouldn't be unlocked until eight in the morning. To this day, I deeply regret that incident. I always wish I could have arrived sooner.

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I can't shake that sense of completion. I know that death and birth are unchangeable. But my father's death has been a nightmare for me throughout my life. From that moment on, my life changed. It felt like I was being forced to prepare for life afterward.

The same thing happened with my mother's death. I was at work when I received a call from my crying sister, who said, "If this is it, I feel suffocated." Shortness of breath is a sign that someone is facing their death. At that time, I was nowhere to be found.

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Half an hour later, my mother was pronounced dead. The feeling of regret lingers in my life to this day. If life stopped for an hour, I would travel back in time with the help of a time machine. Back to the time of grief. Once that's over, I'll return to the present.

I will erase my sense of regret. Living with a sense of completion feels like hell. I don't want to live like this. Regret that I wasn't there in my parents' final moments. That's all I'll do. What do you think?

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