Each of us has heard something about cosmic black holes. A cosmic black hole is a massive star that, after exhausting its "fuel," begins to shrink because its internal pressure can no longer maintain its stable state. And under the action of its own gravity it rapidly collapses into a massive non-emitting object, which collapses under its own gravity and draws the space-time continuum around it. In this way, a warped section of the Universe emerges.
Black holes got their name because they have such a strong gravitational attraction that they absorb all particles and electromagnetic radiation around them. And even light falling on it can no longer escape from it. As a result, the area where the star used to be appears completely black.
Inside a black hole, the laws of physics that we are accustomed to do do not apply. Since gravity curves space, in the presence of an object of sufficient density, the space-time continuum around it can deform so much that a hole is formed in reality itself.
If we make an analogy with human life, we can find a similar phenomenon.
The black hole inside a person is a huge void that constantly absorbs our energy, distorts reality, and cannot be filled with anything. You experience a constant and deep feeling of inner emptiness, dissatisfaction, restlessness. You are constantly lacking something, and often this is not justified by any rational argument or reason.
Our inner black hole is nothing more than a sense of the absence of a certain part of our essence, or our partial separation from the one Essence.
When we are cut off from some part of our essence or part of the essence that we have appropriated for ourselves, our integrity is violated. And in our essence we feel as if there is an emptiness inside of us that constantly reminds us of ourselves.
Many of us have black holes, but often we are not aware of them. We are usually aware of our longings: "I want recognition. I want to be loved. I want to be rich. I want peace," etc. The presence of strong desires or needs indicates the presence of holes, it is the desire to get what we have not received or lost but need so badly.
Where do black holes come from?
The origin of black holes in a person can be different. Some holes appear in childhood, formed in negative conditions of life, or as a result of traumatic perception of some events. The trouble with many of us is that we are unloved, even from an early age. Perhaps your parents did not care for you and did not appreciate you. And you grew up with low self-esteem, feeling inferior and unwanted.
Sometimes it happens that in the course of life, small cracks appear in our souls, which imperceptibly grow and eventually turn into a deep and wide glittering chasm.
But more often the reason for the appearance of a black hole is a powerful negative event, a strong experience, a tragedy experienced, which has scorched a hole in your heart.
with actions, plans, goals, accomplishments, pleasures, religion...whatever. After all, when you're doing something, the emptiness recedes, and the hole doesn't feel as bad.
But still, when they stop, even for a little while, they feel inner dissatisfaction, they feel that "there must be something else. And they come up with new plans and goals, change their environment - partners, places of residence, work. Although in fact all the time they are trying to run away from their black hole. But that doesn't help either, because they are trying to fill their hole with a false value.
Other people choose simpler and more accessible ways - to silence the awareness and experience of their black hole by changing the perception of their own reality - to cloud their own consciousness with alcohol and drugs, to displace it with virtual reality, etc. All sins and vices are ways to fill the gaping void of one's black hole.
Surely you already know your black hole...because it is impossible to ignore it. And it's very hard for you to live your life, constantly giving your strength and energy to resist this flow, to stay on the edge of this black abyss...not having the strength to either break out or fall through...
The worst is when you don't know the reason for this hole, but you are clearly aware of its presence. You realize that no matter what you start, no matter what you do, no matter what you strive for, no matter how hard you try, everything drains out, crumbles, disappears... All your desperate efforts to change things go nowhere, as if you're trying to throw a bridge over an immeasurable abyss or as if someone keeps throwing you off it... And you don't know how long this hole you carry inside of us is going to keep sucking all the strength and energy out of you..
What to do?
They say that in order to heal, you have to know and understand the cause of the disease. It's scary to look inside yourself, especially into your own abyss. But if you want to know what hole is squeezing inside you, you need to go through the fear and pain to a deeper level and get closer to the hole. Listen to the echoes your void makes at certain moments in your life and maybe you'll understand or remember where it all began.
And when you recognize what was lost, perhaps you can find the missing aspect of your essence and fill your hole once and for all with true, authentic value, making you a whole person again.
Either way, the important thing is not to despair. There is a way out of every hole.
As the well-known expert on cosmic black holes, theoretical physicist Stephen Hawking said: "Black holes are not as black as they appear to everyone. They are not eternal prisons, as it was thought before. There is a way out of them and perhaps even into another universe. If you feel that you are trapped in a black hole, don't give up - there is a way out."
Stephen Hawking discovered and described a phenomenon that was later called "Hawking radiation".It turns out that the event horizon of a black hole radiates energy. Thanks to quantum effects, it produces streams of particles emitted into the surrounding space. Despite the fact that matter cannot escape beyond the event horizon, due to this radiation, the black hole nevertheless gradually "evaporates". And with time it can finally lose its mass and disappear.
Frankly speaking, I think that there are people who were destined to be born already with holes, and there are holes which are never destined to be filled. Even Sigmund Freud himself, after experiencing several personal losses, admitted that grief is inconsolable and stays with a person forever, rather than being displaced without trace, as he previously believed. So we may have to try to get used to it and learn to live with it, perhaps for the rest of our lives.
And finally, I'm reminded of the words of the two black hole possessors at the end of the movie "The Psychoanalyst."
" - Will it never go away?
- No..but we're still here, and that means it's for a reason..."