The gentle breeze tickled her skin quietly like a ninja as she grimaced in pain.
It was a sad cold night, and she knew but had no energy left to run from what life had brought to her palm. Still, her heartbeat screamed;
Run!
And she wanted to.
She wanted to truly run and find a place to cower down at. A safe place where no words or sounds could get to her. But such a place is in no existence in her world except in death.
Words...
They filled her head as she closed her eyes to let the liquid out. Despite the numbness in her ankle, she swallowed the pain in her heart.
" No! No...! I know I don't deserve this. Any cruelty life has brought in, and others it will likely bring in. I don't deserve any of them. So why are they happening to me?" she cussed out loud. "If they don't happen to you, who else should take the fall?" her conscience questioned her.
Rolling her eyes, she cussed at her darn conscience.
"Your reason for being with me is just to make life hell for me. Isn't it?" Her thoughts snapped back, but deeply, she knew her conscience was right.
Looking at the sky, a lazy smile crossed her lips. She couldn't help but wonder when it became cloudy when it was hot some minutes ago. But that's how life is…
"I guess." she mumbled with her shoulders up.
"I thought I'd win. I.. I gave it my all, but why? Why was I pushed down even before I started?" she questioned with a furrowed eyebrow.
"We have many thoughts that state we deserve this and that, but do we deserve them? What makes you think that medal should be yours and not someone else's? The other person put in a lot of work into this, too. So, why must it be yours?" Her conscience demanded.
Grinding her teeth quietly, Bella tightened her hands with every cuss word she had learnt as a kid rolling off her head like they were on a mission.
"You realize I can feel your emotions, right?" Her conscience questioned in an obvious tone Bella had come to detest, and she couldn't help hitting her chest.
"You've come a long way, and looking back, not everyone you started with is with you. Some are in better places, and others are gone to the place beyond. And you... You need to stand with your heads up because this isn't your end. The frustration you feel, let's channel it to the right place.You can't change what has happened . You need to get your ankle treated, and tomorrow is another day." Her conscience added, and Bella couldn't help but smile a little.
"You do know how to make a lady feel better." Bella giggled.
"Erm, you know you are still a girl, right?" Her conscience questioned.
"Just shut up!" Bella replied with a smug.
Still yours truly,
Balikis.
Thanks for reading.
Peace be unto those who crave it and more to those who chase it away.