I think these kinds of stories can really be the most valuable here on this platform. So sorry that this was your childhood - we all deserve to feel cherished (by our parents especially), but that of course is not the reality for all. I think you are quite amazing for being so candid and being able to make it through with a self-awareness, strength, appreciation, and understanding that most of us don't have. And that mask drawing! I love it. I am partial to masks myself.