WE ARE VIBRATIONAL BEINGS
And when our psyche is not balanced or becomes disturbed amazing and crazy things can happen.
*A tree by our chicken coop...destroyed by my negative energies?
Yesterday and last night were by far the worst so far concerning me and my mental/emotional state. Even with the couple of hours that I was able to forget my pain, my mind was stuck in, and hell-bent on destruction. I wanted nothing to do with any level of happiness and all my thoughts were on the homestead simply being gone. I found myself first wishing I had never bought the place and those thoughts quickly escalated to me wishing that the entire place would be destroyed. I'm not sure why it went there other than my mind isn't what it should be.
...It was then that I heard the thunder, it sounded different...I challenged the universe, in my mind saying, "destroy the place if you wish, please do me a favor."
THE STORM WAS UNBELIEVABLE!!!
As I rode the storm out, I quickly realized this storm was magnitudes worse then any we had had so far at the homestead, and possibly the worst storm I have ever experienced...and all the while I kept up with my emotional outcry for the place to be destroyed...and the universe kept fulfilling my wants.
THEN I HEARD THE TREES STARTING TO SNAP
The first was the one by the coop I shared in the picture, followed by two more crashes off in the distance. The wind picked up to an amazing howl and I could barely see out my windows and doors. I had water surrounding the cabin in the form of a massive river... Normally it would simply flow around the cabin, but this storm brought a river that threatened to uproot my foundation...My thoughts turned to my son, Evan, and I began to become concerned that the place may actually be destroyed.
The rocks on the picture above are there to divert water away from the cabin, however this storm ended up simply pushing them away from the cabin and down the hill. Everything that wasn't attached to something ended up going down the hill.
MENTAL EXHAUSTION TAKES OVER
After a couple hours, I no longer wanted to be awake to deal with anything, so I laid down in the middle of the storm and figured everything would be here in the morning, or it wouldn't. But i couldn't take dealing with the thoughts in my mind any more.
A NEW DAY DAWNS
I awoke this morning to a renewed vigor and an amazing new outlook. I think while the storm may have destroyed quite a few things at the homestead, I also believe it helped to cleanse and remove a lot of my negative mindset. It had been washed away. In my mind I can now see my future again and it looks beautiful.
ALL LOSES COME WITH WINS(There's a silver lining behind every cloud)
So, I have once again lost Katie...so it is. The universe must have bigger plans for me and I will do my best to discover those plans and do what I need to find happiness and share it with the world. I will always hope that she and I will have a future for she is all I want. I know she does not feel this way, so I must move on and wait for the universe to send me my even more perfect fit. She must be out there somewhere, and maybe it is Katie, but I am not trying to find anyone. I will simply be patient and wait as I believe my needs will be met sooner, then later. I cannot do the homestead alone, and as of now I will not be leaving....therefore it is my belief that I will be supplied this need.
A NEW DAY DAWNS
The storm has passed and a new day has been bestowed upon me by the universe. Thank you.
STORM PICTURES
This is the first time any of my neighbors have ever seen the creek leave its bank like this and flood the fields. It really was an amazing storm unlike any that I have ever seen!
*It moved a 90 pound rock 15 feet.
*The flood destroyed my ability to drive my truck across the creek as it washed away all my stones.
*In this pic, you can see all the grass laid over from the flood, along with a tree it pushed into the field.
*Mud from the creek flooding over the road.
*A bunch of debris picked up and moved by the flood.
*This is the actual highway that leads to our homestead...even it got flooded.
