What a beautiful, honest and poignant piece. I am so very sorry for the sad demise of your beautiful Mum and for your all consuming grief; and happy that the experience of the flotation tank has calmed you and given you more clarity. Of course you are right; your Mum does not wish for you to be sad and I tell you that, in spirit, she is by your side cheering you on. I will not go into detail here as my story is long but suffice to say that my dear Mum passed in August 2016 but I was fortunate to have experienced a spiritual epiphany just months prior to her transition. The spirits made themselves known to me and now I even get to sometimes talk to my Mum! We are all spirit having a physical experience and whilst our body dies our energetic essence lives on. Do not be sad and know that all is well. Upvoted and followed I invite you to read one of my pieces which may be of interest to you: https://steemit.com/philosophy/@ldacey-laforge/ways-the-spiritual-realm-communicates-with-us Finally I tell you that when my Mum died the spirits told me to rejoice as she had come home! Be happy and well. With love xox