IBOGA
I love this plant.
Why would someone love a plant that makes you feel like some bugs are cleaning out your brain, you cant walk proberly, you need to puke, and you cant see because it makes you really really light sensitive for about 24hrs.
Hm... because it gives you a full energetical reset, a brain reset, builds up your nervous system, recovers your receptors (like dopamin, serotonin, etc), detoxes you, clearing old traumas, improving stress, and simply giving you back the life why you came here in first place.
It can free you totally from your addiction. It even happened before that heroin addicts became sober over night forever, without having any cold turkey symptoms.
I started microdosing a few months back and imediately knew that this was the right thing for me.
I felt like I had soooo much energy again after years of just being tired all the time, not being very productive nor motivated.
My skin and body shape also started to shift into something feeling more healthy and shiny than before.
The microdosing worked so well that I have decided I want to do the full flood-dose.
Luckily I found a mega experienced person with Iboga. Its so important to do it with someone you trust and that knows his/her stuff.
So...unfortunately I cant remember too much from my Iboga journey, just that there was a lot of cleaning in my brain and body going on.
It felt like my brain was a super computer buzzing all the way through....like a very good and strong anti-virus programm was run through me.
Honestly it felt super relieving and I had some moments where I felt like soooo happy to be alive, being on this planet.
After about 8 hours of the main trip, integration time started, where I began to understand a whole lot about my life, old forgotten trauma, stories, patterns, family history and I got a really pretty pictures of some ballons flying in the sky...after a few weeks I started to understand what it ment.
This picture took away some of my deepest fear - existential fear. I had this fear since I became a single mother not having a lot of money and food for my two little ones.
At the same time it showed me where this fear was coming from - old Second World War memories that I took over from my grandparents.
Amazing how this plant is able to show us how our patterns and subconscious works.
Well...what can I tell you....Iboga totally took this fear away from me...cant quite believe that myself yet but it worked. yeahhh!!!
And it also did a few other super amazing things that are life changing for me...
I might tell you some day ;)
Originally it comes from Africa, from the Bwiti Tribe/Cult where it is used as a spiritual plant for ceremonies and initiation.
