27/9-17
I wanna disappear,
Disappear from desires,
disappear from pleasing,
disappear from thoughts,
disappear from you.
I wanna disappear from me.
Disppear from distractions,
disappear from decisions,
disappear from doing.
I wanna disappear from illusion.
I wanna disappear from this dream.
I find myself in a limbo between a sense of constant fear and danger and total liberation.
"Trying to function" doesn't work, yet my fear stops me from doing nothing. My fear stops me from observing and feeling in.
More the reason to do so.
Yet I've heard I should give myself a break- yet I can't stand this limbo. This limbo.
How to best experience this limbo?
Accept the limbo.
It doesn't hurt but it doesn't relief me either, it's got ahold of me, doesn't fully let go.
This limbo....