Okay, so, I'm having one of those times where I need to step away from the news cycle. The terrible, horrifying news cycle about American imperialism? No, actually - the drama of Steemit.
I try and read up on various points of view, things people think will fix the system, counter arguments, some of them are well put, some are funny, some are ranty, some are hopeful. Some people just absolutely hate each other it seems, some arguments I think must have backstory I'm not privy to. Some people are Steemit cheerleaders, other people are like bible doomsday predictors who have a new apocalypse theory every second Tuesday. I give a shit about this platform, because I think it has a lot of potential, so I want to understand.
But sometimes it seems like people live in a Steemit amplification bubble and get really worked up about ...really, I'm not sure. Like, y'all, I'm a hermity, homebound, depressed, ill person whose only real human interaction is the internet, AND because I'm disabled, even with my earnings being tiny, Steemit has been my biggest source of income for months and is the reason my power is on and my cats are fed and right now I feel like the community needs to take a step back and gain a little perspective. Relax. Deep breaths.
Well anyway, that's what I'm going to do. I'll still be here, blogging about cats and crafts and chalk and cooking and whatever thrill-a-minute shit I get up to, and commenting on people's blogs and tossing my pennies into their vote jar, but I'm done with the drama. I don't have enough spoons to feed myself most days, I can't be spending them on arguments about bidbots and rewards. I apologize for all the times I read one well-worded article and thought "good point!!" without seeing the eight different counterarguments. I am not a developer, I am not a cryptographer, I have one plankton account and no money to buy the dip, I'm just happy when I can eat and buy soap and maybe do a good deed in the world. So, that's what I'm gonna do.
I'm small and insignificant, always have been. The titans can battle over world domination. At this point, not being stepped on is about all I can hope for, and that's not looking like I have great odds. I'm really tired. Even if all the bad actors bugger off, I'll still be a speck. It won't be my fortunes that change. It's like when work gives you a ten cent raise and your rent goes up $200. That's how it works in my experience.