What I have Understood about the meaning of life;
To live is to suffer, to survive is to find meaning in the suffering.
A lot of what we learn, we learn painfully so it's not surprising that people shrink away from learning But shrinking away doesn't help, it only builds up the catastrophe..
There's no way of force stalling learning, all you do is make it worse in the future, you make yourself smaller and you make the lesson harder.
Understand that you don't know enough so that your life isn't going to be miserable, grab every chance you get to grab something new that'll help you along the way. You should take it as fast as you can ALSO you should have a tragic and harsh view of reality, that'll make you desperate enough to learn.