THE OVERLY CAUTIOUS DREAMER
Whenever I need to do something I tend to highly overthink it, thus creating a huge chance that I mess it up. From that sentence alone you've probably figured out that I'm a big 'lists' person. Yet even with my extensive lists I am also that person who arrives at their destination and has forgotten at least a dozen important things that should have been brought. Even when it came to joining the steemit community my ability to overthink almost kept me from experiencing the joys of meeting and interacting with fellow writers and friends. Thank goodness I had great family members who encouraged me to keep at it and join. So now, weeks later, I'm finally saying hello--
THE WANDERING DREAMER
Growing up I was always the rebel child. The one that didn't want to be contained. I wanted to go everywhere, see everything, and experience life outside my small country town. At the age of 6 I decided I was going to run away from home and live life my way. My mom saw me packing, wordlessly came into my room and began helping me as I told her why I was leaving. I walked out that door, waving goodbye to my mom as she stood watching me walk away, never knowing this exact scene would happen again 13 years later--but that's another story. This time I only made it to the top of our driveway before crying and running back into the safe arms of my mother. No matter how much of a rebel I was or how much I felt out of place; my love for my family always kept me grounded. I was a tough, stubborn, opinionated child compared to my older sister who would apologize for being bad just by giving her 'the look', and was perfectly happy to stay home and live the country life. I recently asked my mom how she put up with me, she smiled and said " You never liked to be caged in even as a baby you hated your crib or swing. You always had to be free to discover things. One night as I was rocking you, trying to get you to sleep, I remember just knowing that you were different. You were a dreamer, a wanderer, and I would have to let you go." My home life wasn't perfect. We had our ups and downs, but God blessed me by placing me in a family that could handle this crazy dreamer and love me for who I was-- stubborn rebel and all.
WHO ME?
I would never have thought that I would be sharing my crazy antics, blunders, and deep thoughts with this many people. Though this is not my first time writing my thoughts down and sharing them, my other audience was much smaller and to me that seemed safe, but I'm finding out that God likes to push us out of our comfort zones-- so here I am. My name is Crystal. I'm an over thinker, blunt speaker and big dreamer. I love God, my family and friends, and have a deep passion to help others not give up on their dreams. I'm excited to share my messy, chaotic, dreamfilled life with you, my dear friends and readers, on this crazy journey called 'life'.
