Welcome to Hive. I have that torturing tendency as well, I understand you very well and I think it comes from the idea of "I should move" Some people cannot live without doing anything and choosing one of the hardest thing is your moving. I hope you will be easy on yourself.
Also, if you could mention how you found about Hive, it would be perfect.
I invite you to explore other communities you might like that are part of the OCD Communities Incubation Program. Check out all the communities, read their rules and post in the one that fits your content.
RE: Peeking into Ecency