Wow... That's an amazing picture and I love the way you write. I feel very identified with your text because I've always had that same feeling: wanting to write and not being able to start because of too many excuses.
Keep improving and doing it like that, my advise is that you don't give up, I think that you have a lot of talent.
I invite you to see my content, I think that you are going to like it as we have many ideas in common. I am also starting, so... Good luck for us!