Hello fellow matrix navigators! Where most will start from the beginning I myself will not be. The details of anyone life is sometimes simple too much for words. The over all importance is the here and now.
Here, today, I am a mother of five beautiful sons. They’re all so different and wonderful. Just to be clear I never wanted to be a parent. I guess god felt otherwise. But after having them... well I can honestly say I love them all with every fiber of my being. It’s taught me many things some people never learn.
I’m in the middle of a divorce so that’s.. yeah.
I live in the country and it is now my sanctuary after having felt like a prison for so long. Funny how the world will do that to a person once they’ve left home.
I’ve traveled all across the United States. I recently left Oceanside CA, I already miss the harbor.
I also learnt to skateboard out there, broke my foot two hours later. As horrible and funny as this sounds it was actually the greatest thing to ever happen to me. I still love skateboarding, longboard more specifically now that my foots been broken in. haha bad joke I know
Anyways I love being outside, gardening, anything dealing with dirt, mud, rain, water, plants, animals, insects, birds... Nature. The only things I don’t like are being cold and... being trapped. Pretty sure that’s called winter!
In the winter months it’s harder to find things I like to do mainly because this year I’m in Michigan and there’s just not really much to do right now. So reading, drawing, listening to music and singing, video games and movies. I really don’t care for tv though.
There are just so many other things to do besides get brain washed. I’ve had my share for years now and I’m ready for some Wholesome Active Living.
As you can probably tell I’m all over the place. My life’s been debased and it’s been somewhat of a task to really figure out what it is that I want to be doing. And some of the things I should be doing I hold off on. On false hope I suppose.
I took a few steps these last two weeks though. It’s felt relieving and freeing again to move some. At the same time it’s the most painful thing I’ve ever had to do.
If you’ve ever went through an unwanted divorce then you know what I mean.
We are doing good though. My sons are strong as long as I am, which is harsh for all of us. Being a former military family has made us all somewhat disconnected on the whole thing. We are closer than ever, more helpful and forgiving towards one another ( if you have two or more boys you will find they fight every second of every day), so that’s a huge step for us in moving forward. Some days are long and trying though.
We are making summer plans for our gardens and beekeeping. Which brings me back to Now.
This adventure I hope to keep you posted on taking this little hole in the earth and turn it into a homestead Like haven. We plan on sowing 90 acres of any and every flower we can. Every vegetable we have time for. Plus possibly building a greenhouse before winter if we can collect the supplies in time.
Many plans, many things to keep us going. And hopefully many post, and better things to talk about.
Regardless I hope this was an interesting opener, I’m pretty simple and straight forward. Just learning to navigate this life like every one around! Peace ✌🏼
