Thanks a lot for the response. My troubles seem small and insignificant when compared to losing a child. So all the strength and endurance to you and your fiance.

As to the occult and spirituality, it's obviously a very large topic so I'll only touch upon it briefly. So the occult or hidden body of knowledge can be used for good and evil, and the occultists themselves talk about black and white magic and make a distinction between them. It's just knowledge, and basic philosophical principles and what I would call thinking-tools, like for example the magic rituals can be seen as just goal-oriented, intentional acts to achieve some goal, or to focus one's consciousness or energies to achieving the outcome in reality.

In some sense all "occultism" is bad though, because it's not open, it's not about the public use of reason and sharing knowledge, but hiding it. And in ancient times I guess there was a good reason for the mystery schools to guard the advanced knowledge this way from people considered "profane". But on the other hand by hiding knowledge from others the occultists (the powerful secret societies) have been creating a power-differential between themselves and those not-in-the-know. In ancient times, and even more recently it was the priesthood would mentally enslave the populations this way, giving one exoteric teaching to the masses while keeping the esoteric knowledge for themselves.

But what you say about scare tactics is true. That's why they're putting all the symbols and stuff in to music videos and public performances, and movies and stuff. To mess with people's heads, especially to mess with the "truthers". As to what this darkest phenomenon of human sacrifice, pedophilia, etc. is really all about, I'm not sure. History is rife with examples of this, and it's still going on. Some people say it's done by the intelligence agencies, and that nobody really believes in any weird dark occult religion, but I don't know. It very well could be that they really believe they're getting power from some dark entity. Also what is called "possession" is a frequent phenomenon in history, both possession by "good spirits", like Socrates' daemon which was more like a voice of conscience, the Christian spirit etc. but also bad ones. Maybe it's all in the mind, but it's still something real as a phenomenon.

But, yeah, I guess Nietzsche said it well that those who fight monsters better watch out so that they won't become monsters themselves. And that if you gaze in to the darkness, the darkness might start gazing back at you. I think that when I was really delving in to the rabbit hole and trying to figure out what makes these people tick, I was somehow infected with that darkness.

There exists a real consciousness of darkness and sadism and psychopathy in this world, but it's just extremely disturbing to focus one's mind on it. So yeah I definitely want to encourage people to do their own research in to these subjects and take the red pill and see how far the rabbit hole goes, but remember to look after your mental health and a balance in your life.

As to what you say about realizing our power, open source and transparency: right on! The cleanse is coming! :D thanks for the comment.