Hello steemit,
Welcome to realandraw, the anonymous steemit only blog that will serve as a almost online journal where a real person (me) with a real life and real struggles can share my experiences and unfiltered thoughts without the risk of worrying about my opinions, life problems or anything i say causing problems in my real life but serving as a means of getting out all the pent up feelings on the day to day struggles that i go through both good and bad.
This blog will not be for everyone.. I will have opinions people may not agree with and will say exactly what is on my mind even if i know it isn't something that should be said. With that being said this wont be another blog with another person acting like a asshole or dick just because it gets views because in my opinion that is just another way of filtering what is really on your mind. This blog will be honest, some good some not but honest.
Now let me tell you a little about myself and my life.
I'm a middle aged man, single father and have a job i love but it doesn't pay nearly enough to be comfortable. I have a lot of dark secrets berried deeply and as a lot of other people around the world do i put on a good face for everyone to see. I constantly feel like im drowning in a sea of failure and pain but i tough it out and do what i can to make my children's lives better. I'm not a writer so don't expect perfect structure, spelling or grammar because that is far from what this blog is about.
I'm in a line of work that is very public and even if some of my life experiences are normal they would not be appropriate to share openly and could cause me to lose my job. Public image is a important part of what i do so every word i post has to be in line with what i do.
Don't get me wrong im not living some massive lie and the person i am in real life on social media is the real me its just a thought out version that is cleaned up and without any of my private life shown (Like a lot of us do)
In this vlog im going to talk about my past and present. I will discuss my opinions on different things that come up as i figure out my way. Ill share my thoughts in a way that is rarely done in a open online platform. You will see me happy, sad, mad and even see my depression. You will literally see through my eyes and get a perspective of another human being going through similar struggles as you are.
Heres the deal.
I'm not creating this blog to become famous or to become wealthy. I do not have the money to power up this account and will not be doing much in the way of upvoting. Their wont be many pictures and most likely no videos. There will be inappropriate language and dark opinions, sometimes what i say here will be offensive and i wont always mean what i say.
I'm creating this blog as a way of releasing my thoughts and feelings. Once something is out there for the hole world to see it will be a release of stress associated with bottling up everything to give the appearance of having everything figured out.
This blog wont be all dark and sad, actually will most likely be more upbeat but just in a honest way.
I plan to stay anonymous and hope that everyone will understand and accept that but in the unlikely circumstance where a lot of people end up loving what i have to say and relating to me and this blog in a very special way i will consider releasing my identity if and when the blogs popularity reaches a level where what ive shared or have to share wont effect my life due to being accepted largely by the community (If that ever happens you may be surprised to know who i am). In a perfect world in a perfect circumstance ide love to share my feelings openly with the hopes of uplifting or helping someone along there journey but unfortunately people suck and the world can be a bitch to honest people. Its a lot easier to put on a show then to be honest and real today.
Well that's it for my intro, im nervous about doing this but here gos nothing.