SHE USED TO BE AN INTROVERT IN HER SCHOOL DAYS BUT BULLYING AND PEER PRESSURE CHANGED HER.
Growing up, fitting in was never an option. You won't see her in a crowd. She prefer small circle. She prefer quality over quantity.
She used to be known as a smart kid, a good leader and a good role model. Everyone she knew wish her a bright future.
But some things just don't normally work out the way you want it to. She drop out in college. Got stuck with a job she wasn't so happy about.
The direction she was heading was pretty much opposite to what she had expected. She had lost sight.
She had stumbled a few times on the road. She lost control. She felt lost.
The journey keeps getting harder and harder. As days past by she become more confused and curious.
She wasn't sure how it started but one day she had let peer pressure in and thats when it all changes.
She changed. From mara to clara. From nerdy to bitchy. From shy to flirty. And so on.
She started wearing revealing clothes. She became known for her sexy figure. Thats her new icon.
Her idea of fun started changing. More liquors. More loud music. More parties. More meeting strangers.
She strongly believes in the saying that "Life is short and we must live everyday like it was our last. Live while we're young. Work harder and party harder. "
But as they say too much of anything can destroy you. Like it did to her.
She become too much of a fearless and careless girl that it killed her inside.
Sometimes she feels too bad that everytime she breath she feels like a broken glass scatters inside her lungs.
She knew it has to stop.
She have to make a choice.
She started cutting ties and letting go.
She build a strong big wall. Only letting a few people in.
Even before she knew it,
She distanced herself to save herself.
(MY OWN WORDS)
