Thank you for this post and opening up, sorry that your father was taken away so suddenly.. so I admire the courage and direction that you are taking now, upon yourself, looking after yourself properly - so in a way that respects his wishes. Also..never be disheartened by someone calling you crazy just because they have not had the scope to explore certain topics such as metaphysics. In a way, if your called crazy, your on the right path! So keep it up! Will follow:) look forward to your posts.