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Hey guys, In this post im going to talk to you about Anxiety and Depression, and ofc - My experience with it.
Anxiety and depression are sadly a common thing, but a low percentage are actually treating it/admiting they have it.
I'm 20 years old right now and im gladly saying - I am not depressed anymore! I still have some anxiety, but not as much as i used to, I'll explain it now.
After i finished Highschool, i was supposed to join the Israeli army, if you don't know , Every citizen in Israel has to join the army at the age of 18. I finished highschool when i was 17, means - I had a 1 year break before joining the Army.
I'm a really friendly guy, I'm always dominant and when i finished Highschool, I suddenly stopped talking to my friends, I was just watching movies and doing my business on my Laptop. Thats how i spent a whole year.
I didn't go outside for weeks, because i had nothing to do outside, and one thing left to another. I started thinking everything i feel is Cancer ( I hate even saying this word, I always say "C" and not the full word ) My neck hurts? Cancer. I've a flu? Cancer. You know what i mean? It's really hard to live like that, All i thought about is Diseases.
I started being really depressed, I didn't want to talk to anyone, I was really closed, and it made me being scared to go outside with my friends. ME. the guy who went out with friends 3 days a week.
My hands started shaking everytime i did something that made me anxious. I couldn't drink or eat when people were near me ( People that aren't my close family ). If i held a cup with water for example, I was scared to lift it to drink, Because my hand started shaking so hard. and it made me even more closed than i was because of the anxiety. I couldn't do anything LITERALLY.
It took me alot of time to tell my parents about my anxiety, but when i did? It was the best decision i made in my life.
I started going to psycholigst, after 6 months of going to the psycholigst twice a week, I felt better, but i was still depressed&anxious.
And then, I started taking Psychiatric pills. and let me tell you that - It was the right desicion.
After i started taking the pills, I started smilling again, I wasn't depressed anymore, It helped me do everything i was scared to do while being anxious. It was a process ofc, and I did alot in my own, but the pills really helped me to start doing things.
I ate infront of alot of people, I went to the supermarket, went to buy clothes, and did a lot of things i couldn't imagine ill do when i was anxious.
What about now?
Now i'm volunteering as a social media manager in a Non-profit organization and i LOVE IT!
I'm going out with friends, And i dont think about Disease that often anymore!
If you feel depressed or/and anxious, Please, talk about it with someone you trust and treat it as soon as possible, because it's not a life you want to live, trust me. if you have any more questions regarding it, Feel free to ask in the comments.