Introductory post.

Intro post

Good morning,

My given name is Mark, though I go by a few others from time to time. I'm not quite certain how to go about writing this, so I'll just throw some stuff out there and see what sticks.

I found out about Steemit rather accidentally, when my friend Hive account@paintingangels was lamenting about the general suckitude of Facebook. I was a severe Facebook addict for a long time, it had started as an attempt at therapy and took on an obsessive role in my life. I have a rather addictive personality, which means I'm always looking for something to be addicted to. And it certainly fit the bill. Fully designed for shitposting and vanity. It's murder finding any groups of real value there.

In an attempt to get away from Facebook, I started a Google+ page as it's altogether a better system, being aimed more at artists than grandstanding. I curate a number of collections there, because there I can show my real interests instead of the sanitized version for the real-world.

Then I heard of Steemit, a place with a solid built-in dynamic for enforcing quality rather than crap. I always hoped for such a thing, a self-policing community where my critiques and input actually meant something. Where posts were rated on merit rather than political dogma. A delight in every form.

So let me introduce myself:

Due to a number of catastrophic events that have taken place recently, (honestly, a full-blown apocalypse on a personal scale;) I've come to understand that virtually everything I know about myself was based on a dizzying array of lies, bordering on a minor conspiracy (no shit) of the sort that only happens in Southern Gothic novels. I'm honestly having to rebuild an entire life at age 42.

I study archaeology, anthropology, biology, folklore, geology, deep-time theory, molecular physics, quantum physics, economics, evolutionary psychology, neurology, mythology, comparative religion, psychopharmacology, behavioral psychology, jungian psychology, teleology, physiology, and many other subjects, including:

Santeria, Vodou, New Orleans-style voodoo (very different things) Hinduism, Taoism, modern paganism, apocryphal paganism, Christian mysticism, astrology, divination, dowsing, and alot of other weird shit, all in an attempt to find a Cure.

A cure for what? Well, Life.

I'm a rather damaged individual. I have post traumatic personality disorder, complex PTSD from two separate instances of longterm abuse, chronic suicidal ambition, severe abandonment issues, executive dysfunction disorder, dissociative disorder, and quite possibly, full on brain damage; due to childhood battery and fetal alcohol poisoning. The jury is still out on the last two, but it's a line of inquiry that I'm actively pursuing.

And simply put, I want to take you along for the ride. I'm tired of hiding, and I want to tell the world what has happened, what I've learned, and what I'm doing about it all now. Believe it or not, it's very exciting. I finally have a future to look forward to.

I'm likely to being doing this in a very disjointed fashion, so my posts will range far and wide, involving all kinds of topics. From comedy to full-blown horror show. Luckily, the max of 5 tags is going to keep it down to a dull roar.

And though I'm rather afraid to be spilling the intimate details of my life in public, Steemit is so little-known right now that by the time my family hears of it, it'll all be long done. They won't be able to interfere.

Rest assured, I am certainly not doing this for attention. If I wanted drama I would do it on Facebook, because that joint is custom built for personal theatrics. I am an intensely private person, with a skin thick-as-air.

I'm doing this to help myself, and perhaps help others. My quest to find the Cure is long from over. I'm looking for collaborators, not followers.

And if we happen to save the world in the process, well so much the better.

Good day,

Carcosa Hali