It war 89 when i was born. I was, as my siblings, an accident. Condoms did not work as intended. And that is not to rare an occurrence, condoms are great for preventing STDs, against pregnancies the reliability is not great.
For the first year my parents lived with me in an apartment, not to big, i do not remember much of it. But very soon my sister was on the way, leading to my parents moving with us to the house our grandfather on my fathers side had built next to his business (which was mostly squandered but that is another story entirely, suffice it to say the only thing left in the family is that house. Not a bad house, honestly. Sad to leave that behind, especially as i know for a fact neither of my siblings will care about it at all once we inherit it. After all, my grandfather was an evil capitalist with white privilege. Yes, that is my sister for you.)
Sorry, back to my history. At the age of 4ish i noticed that i could read. I didn't try to learn it, it is just that i knew what a few labels and signs said, there are not that many characters, it is easy to notice the pattern in how those characters work. I borrowed my fathers old comic books, some from a time where only every other sheet was in color if i recall correctly.
I also borrowed his university physics textbook and read a bit in that. When i was 5 my brother was born, soon after that my parents separated. We went with my mother, i, however, always wanted to stay with my father.
I had trouble in school, not because i did not understand the material, but i did not get along well with people. In fact, i could barely speak at all. At this point i understand that this was due to the narcissistic abuse by my mother (which recent politics and media outlets i do recognize engaging in that same type of gaslighting, twisting of words, "fact checking" and so on, of course there are avenues of abuse that the media is not capable of while parents and psychologists are).
Of course, my mother would notice that and saw it as a problem with me rather than seeing any fault with herself.
As so often happens, she shopped around among psychiatrists until she found one that "agreed" with her that i am just autistic and that that is a problem and helped in her abuse.
In the meantime, i was with the scouts (and in germany it is just scouts, not boyscouts or girlscouts. However, it is not a forced mixing as in the US, just if you are enough of a tomboy to do that there is no issue with that. But, do expect that if you are a newcomer, especially if you are a little older, to be tied to the ground with tent-pegs by the little ones. We certainly also did not built 2 holes to shit on to segregate) which honestly it was less learning wilderness survival than you might think, though of course if you hike or camp like scouts do you learn some of that. Never living of the land or anything like that though. I went with them for about 10 years, but that is a story for another time.
Luckily, i was not stuck in that household forever. I must have been 12ish when i moved back to my father. I did experience clinical depression in 2006ish eventually leading to me staying home for nearly a year. After that, however, after being left alone i quickly became fortified (it was in that time also when i dealt with some psychologists again. They did test my IQ as well, which according to their test wouldve been 124, however that test only went from 70 to 130 and i maxed out quite a few subcategories of intelligence so probably more). Went back to school for a bit, exuding enough confidence to have girls fight over me.
Good to have gotten out of my mothers household, there were however still problems, of course. Public schools still did not suit me. Nor would employment, for that matter. I dropped out when i was 18 and started a business so to speak. Did some freelance coding contracts starting at 40$ an hour, which according to official inflation statistics would now be 60$.
It was at that time when i started considering to leave germany. Even just for the lower cost of living alone, given i could earn my money online.
Not long after that, however, i started to experience pain in my face. Not consistently at first, couldve just been the strongest dental pain experienced so far. And indeed, the dentist i went to at the time did extract some teeth. The teeth were fine, i had trigeminal neuralgia caused by multiple sclerosis. But it would take years to figure that one out, and in fact only because i insisted on getting an MRT scan done AND based on what was seen after reading through the medical publications on the topic presented my conclusion to my physicians. Which, yes, indeed unlike opioids, the medication more specific to trigeminal neuralgia - and the surgery - did help.
When i was getting back on my feet after the neurosurgery (which might have to be repeated eventually) we had covid and they would not let me leave.
I had the money to buy a house (some can go as low as 2000$, sure, mostly a pile of bricks with not much to it, but it still has air conditioning), 20 hectares (40 acres) of land, laying a few kilometers of broadband, a used car or two, some tools, a handgun and a rifle... now, everything is more expensive, they are still making it difficult to leave and with the collapsing economy forced me to spend some of my savings as well of course.
In all this time, of course there were many things going on on the side. From my girlfriends (2, one of which lasting 3 years.) over my hobbyist projects. For example, in my late teens i ran a hobbyist chemlab for fun. No, nothing illegal went on there but i could not repeat that now. Back then i could order elemental sodium, canisters of hydrochloric acid and nitric acid right to my door from industrial suppliers. Nowadays, even that is heavily regulated because "you could make bombs". Right, and i could blow up lithium batteries, too. Or lock your emergency exit with a bike lock. If you do not trust me to handle my affairs responsibly or indeed maybe you fear i might even intentionally use chemicals or weapons for evil, how am i to trust you that you are not going to put me into the next camp? I can not. I can not trust people that will not even let me have guns to not try to exterminate the likes of me.
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