-My name is Marie and I'm dependant.
-Hello Marie.
-Hello Everyone...
Ahhhhh I know what you're thinking: An other story of a drug addict that has recovered....
Nop. I never said that. Don't make assumptions...keep focus.
There are so many dependancies other than drugs and alcohol, it's pretty fascinating if you ask me.... Mine is pretty conventional actually... I'm dependant to laughing. But the thing is that I'm not satisfied by comedies or jokes or funny situations; I wanna live a fucking circus. Oh sorry.... I'm better of telling you right now too, I swear quite a lot.... If it's something you take offence in, you and I... its not gonna work....;)
Yeah so, the thing with my brain is that I'm always seeking new ways to laughing my ass off. And because I might have quite low inhibitions and I don't take myself very seriously, it leads me to do a lot of stupid things, reaching always a little further. A lot of people don't think I'm funny, of course.... But I proudly do not give a fuck. My friends think I'm funny. I think I'm funny and my mom thinks I'm funny too. Those are the most important.
But I haven't always being like that.... Like a lot of people, I went through a lot of phases.... I was a very shy kid and teenager, didn't have lots of friends... then I started to get to know parties and sex and then everything changed. I started stripping when I was 20... Therefore I started knowing money and luxury. I kinda start loosing myself during those years, but I then started traveling the world and opening my eyes on cultural differences and incredible beauties from every corner of this planet.
But I was in a world of superficiality and boredom at home and I was eager to change that. I was tired of people's fucking judgements and gossips. I wanna be different. I wanna be myself! In that year of my 'transformation', I started being a little obsessed with hats. One in particular... a beautiful, elegant and mysterious Top hat. I started wearing it everywhere... With my 6 inch heels, I was attracting a lot of attention (I'm 6ft tall bare feet). I wasn't doing it for attention though..... I was doing it because that's what I wanted to do.
And I realized that this is what I wanted to do with my life: WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT.
And by that I mean, the things that make me happy, that make me laugh, that make me feel confident, that make me feel like I'm being ME.
This new chapter of my life is yet the most awesome and I recommend everybody to live in that spirit. That lifestyle that I call NGAF (The acronym, not a word...).
NGAF is more than just not giving a fuck. NGAF is born when I was tired of being something I wasn't, talk to people I had nothing in common with and caring about superficial stuff. NGAF is not entitled to be a rebellion, anarchist or apathetic movement; It's an encouragement to stop worrying about what irrevelent people thinks of you; Stop giving importance to society's standards of conformism and be what you feel like being, not what people expect you to be. NGAF is the start to an happier life; When you start not giving a fuck, you begin to emancipate yourself and start living your life to the fullest, rocking your own world and having shit load of fun.
I'm now at a place in my life where I wanna share my crazy stories... because life is too short and I wanna try everything! Everything that makes me laugh! And if it makes you laugh too.... That makes me happy! And that's what life is about!
My favourite subjects are sex, drugs and rocknroll, but it doesn't end there....no no no! I'm a motorcycle enthusiast and world traveler, I did a lot of different jobs in my life and I have a cranky opinion on a lot of actuality stuff.
So I hope you enjoy my writing!
:)
Ps: I wanna precise that my first language is french (I'm from Quebec), so I might do grammatical errors or other mistakes while I'm writing. So don't be a bitch about it, please.