Welcome to Steemit Lindsay, there are so many diverse and wonderful people on here that I think you will definitely work towards finding the answer to your questions. We are here to create ourselves, to allow our higher self to guide us. I believe so much of what we yearn to know, we hold inside, it is finding the peace and stillness to listen. I look forward to hearing your wisdom and truth, there is so much of that being shared on here, it is a treasure to behold xxx