It's amazing how people here steer clear away from this subject haha. Even I watch how I say things because I do mostly food blogs and it doesn't match. But I want out of this mess damn it!!! Why don't other people see ahhhhhh!!!!!

I am staring at the apple tree in the back and hoping that it will be there with fruit as a backup plan for if I run out of money. I won't be asking the authorities to give me any. I am also thinking about just drinking water if I have to. Maybe I'll survive or maybe I won't but I'm not planning to take the gun to my veins.They can take me kicking and screaming.