Some of you might know from my previous posts that I'm running the EOS testnet on a cloud instance. I'm trying to gain a better understanding of the environment so I can put together some good videos that will be helpful. There are only a couple of guys putting out any videos doing any coding on the EOS testnet so I want to add to that. Also when the mainnet launches you can bet I'm going to be trying to snag up user names. The usernames can only be 12 characters or less so I'm going to go after specific words like buying up domain names. I'm sure there will be others doing the same thing as well when the mainnet launches on June 2nd. In the midst of all the EOS stuff I got side tracked by STEEM. A couple of days ago Steemit INC posted this blog post which had some javascript tutorials
I ended up looking at them and while in some ways I don't feel they were effective tutorials really the fact still remained that my foundation had crumbled as far as javascript is concerned.
I had been a little out of the loop doing a ton with javascript in the past couple of years so I didn't realize how much it had changed and the fact that it is so much more robust now. It was very upsetting to realize that half of what I was looking at I didn't understand. Then trying to gain my barrings it really made me feel stupid in a way. I have felt like that many times when you have no real foundation to build off of. You are just totally lost. It has happened to me in Calculus, Statistics, and programming courses in college and then it has happened many times after as well. I absolutely hate that feeling.
It's Not Supposed To Be Easy
If you guys are feeling the same way about something like programming don't feel bad because in the end if it was easy then everyone would do it. So it is going to be hard for everyone. Overtime you can become more accustom to it but what I have realized is that there are people who really like to program and there are people who don't. I was never a person who liked to do crossword puzzles for fun or any of that.
Swallowing My Pride
The resume that I don't actually use has javascript listed on it but to be honest seeing what I saw the last couple of days I can't even say I have a strong understanding of it anymore since so much changed.
At this point to get up to speed to where I could do anything useful with it again I would need to do some online courses and go through a lot of tutorials.
Then I became frustrated and asked myself if it even is worth my time to really dive in that hard and try to get up to speed. Ultimately I don't even know what my end goal is with getting up to speed. I guess in some ways I want to be able to understand it so I don't feel old and stupid. One of the reasons I keep dunking is because when I can't dunk anymore I will probably feel old. If I can't understand technical things I will feel old as well.
Has anyone else felt stupid when trying to understand crypto, programming, or anything else technical?
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