Jesus doesn't look like that. It's shameful for a man to have long hair. The real Jesus was Jewish so his hair was black. He would have short black hair and a long beard like a Jewish rabbi from today.

Sorry, I don't believe for one second that you really meet with Jesus. I don't know if you're visualizing Jesus using occult techniques and are actually meeting with a demon pretending to be Jesus. Or if you're insane or if you're a liar.