I want to write about knowing myself :
HOW am I?
- I feel rage all the time, I hate the world but also I love it. I love animals and I hate people who make them suffer, I don't keen on with people who harms animals, I don't stand It. And also, I have a really huge sens of justice..
so big that I consider myself as an eternal judge.. I can't forgive sometimes. Is it bad?
Why sould I change my feelings if I don't want to?
Fuck me I dont want to change my escense.. but I will because I love that kind of transmutation.
Sometimes I can't stand with my ansiety, people think that feeling depress is a choice, but dont, is very difficult to get rid of your emotions when they are coming trough your heart like you were a volcan wanting to kill everyone and even you, your life , because nothing else matters.
This last Yule, I eat a lote of fruits and also spend time with my family and animals.
I want to be that kind of person my dog thinks I am. But I'm figthing with my ansiety all the time.. All the fucking time. And I came across with my wicca side: I joined the godness and the god. And I'm complete by knowing myself and doing thinks I feel afraid in the past.
What are you afraid of?
I want to talk about knowing myself. Questions:
What Do I love? WhAT do I hate?
Why Am I living? Why shoudn't I be dead?
Where Did my depression came?
When? WHat? For?
That's why you need to know your darkness... Thats the only way to love your light, and get free..