Good morning? This is wholego. Long and long holidays started in Korea. I do not have any plans and I have been frustrated since yesterday from work. But I am relaxed because of long rest. I have had eye problems since yesterday and have been in ophthalmology since morning. Overworking made my eyes dry. Allergic conjunctivitis is treated. For the time being, I should not touch my face.
Today 's posting is about my second lecture of the Academy of Humanities, which I visited this Monday. Last week I set up a schedule for Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday after leaving work for on time leaving from work. So naturally, I was able to work productively and to work quickly during work hours. A little after 6 o'clock, I left and headed to the station where I got a gallery arcade. It is a long journey that takes over an hour from work to Academy.
Lecture
I arrived at the station, but I had a little time left. I was hungry and ate yogurt drinks with the nuts. After listening to last lecture about depression (fatigue society), I had a big ripple in my life and I was able to live a life out of the performance society. Then I went back to the original state of self-exploitation. It is bearable to exploit for what I like. On this day, someone's review about the lecture made me attend this class.
There were three people in the room. Personally, I hate the hustle and bustle circumstance, but I feel a little calm atmosphere here. It is often sharpened when the company's rapid and simultaneous work. This lecture room gives some sense of stability. I sat next to teacher. I think I sat on the other side last time. I take our the iPad as soon as I sit down. It is a necessity item when I attend lectures to me because of the record. I often carry it because I can write a quick and structured lecture note than a hand.
Beginning of class - about self-esteem
And the lecture started. One more man came after lecture started. Begin explaining the topic of today's lecture. A description of self-esteem, self-esteem, and self-confidence, and a new approach to the recently over-the-fashion self-esteem word. The lesson is that high and low self-esteem are formed through learning about innate inward / outward factors and parents' reactions in the parenting process. I think that inward / outward will be a combination of parenting method and your choice to some extent.
Personally, I was impressed that self-esteem is emotion rather than reason, so it can escape the uniform logic of the world. And you can protect your self-esteem by having an objective view of your self through your inner standards. I thought that self is transformed constantly through the meta - ego - half (meta - ego) - sum (modified ego) process of self and the self. And this positive-semi-sum process will be done simultaneously in various ego within me.
Self-esteem
The important point is that once you are objectified to yourself, you can regain your lower self-esteem. Distortion of self through self-rationalization, not objectification, is constantly putting off the confrontation with true self. "I think it is necessary to have courage to act in a way that looks at and embraces the self of oneself who does not wear clothes such as false or vanity". I've been trying this for a long time, but it did not work. If objectification is truly achieved, we have these shortcomings to ourselves, but nevertheless have these advantages. So I'm okay. '
The objectification of oneself will provide a gaze to look at others as they are. If you can control yourself, the impact can be on others, on groups, on countries. I can see others objectively, 'this part of this person is not very good, but this part is ok'. This objective and balanced perspective allows you to see the advantages and disadvantages of others. You can treat people with the word 'nonetheless' rather than falling into the black and white logic of 'like / dislike'. I think that this process can act as a big lubricant in the relationship and can increase the acceptability of others. (Recent test results) I think that it is necessary for me to deal with others who are lacking sociability.
I was worried about whether I should ask the last question, and I recently asked about the subject of perseverance. This is the word that I'm thinking about recently. If you look at a person who is in a reading group, there is no tenacity to do various activities. I have seen myself in that person, and even if I look at it objectively, I have a lot of interest in so many different fields. So there is no interest and investment in one field. Others seem to be doing a variety of activities, but there is no long-lasting action. My sister-in-law also listened to me and said, 'This time I will be a little patient.'
Lecturer's answer to this was very clear. I admit that I was born like this and I want to affirm. I am obsessed with thinking that I should keep one thing steady. I was putting on me an external criterion, not an inner criterion. And she told me her own story, and her hobbies other than her work might be what she really wants. I understand that interest in diverse fields is so energetic, and that the convergence of these interests can create great synergy.
However, I want to do single tasking so that I can finish the project I started and move on to other things. I am interested in various fields, but I am going to compromise to the extent of limiting the number of fields and proceeding at the same time. It may be captured in the framework of a performance-based society that needs to produce results, but I enjoy playing with the process of making one content by melting the things I have learned and learned. I think this posting is one of several processes.
I finish this posting with the phrase from Korean book named "Joy of Thought".
"I began digging widely to dig deep." by Spinoza