Oh, and I define authoritarianism as the concept that you are not in control of yourself.

If you feel compelled to act a certain way by an outside source, you are no longer in control. Many of these outside sources are not quite authoritarian, but many are, in subtle, complex ways.

Religions, society itself, and most certainly governments, are all very authoritarian.

Not only that, but moral codes, ethical codes, social norms, and other common behavior, including language itself, and what words are available to use freely, are authoritarian in nature, because having them or not having them alters our behavior.

If our behavior is a person walking in a straight line, each aspect of authoritarianism shoves that person in another direction.

In the real world, most leftism IS authoritarianism, and is therefor "right", not left.

For leftism to have a useful meaning, it needs to be against authoritarianism, while rightism must be for authoritarianism, which does include subjectively good things like law and order.

The only reason leftism looks like trash is because it attracts many punky "rebels", who end up growing up and becoming rightists. Only their rightism is concealed because they call themselves left. Only as a label.

True leftism is always pro-freedom, and anti-authoritarian.

Seeing left or right as good or evil is the weakness.

You must see each idea as it truly is, without the labels or bullshit.
Wisdom is understanding both sides of a subjective ideal, and realizing that neither side is objectively good or true.